There's no one to talk to homie.

Don't use a counselor from BetterHelp. All the chats and calls are logged by the app.

yeah, I mean...I actually have a therapist, but there are only so many coping mechanisms and reframing skills someone can use.

Besides, those emergency "BetterHelp - if you need someone to talk to" apps are just designed to help someone with acute issues from hurting themselves or someone else or keep them sober(ish) until real help can arrive...doesn't really apply to me...better off posting here, tbh.

I've completed a full year of DBT, 8 months of EMDR and now I'm moved out of SUD completely (my problem was unprocessed trauma, which manifested as anxiety and ADHD...and what was called "addiction" was me self-medicating that shit) and I just do regular old outpatient therapy via zoom every other week.

But none of that changes the fact that I'm missing over $80k, and that I'M the one held accountable for ALL the toxicity in that relationship. I'm the one held financially, socially, criminally, and civilly accountable for ALL of it...

Rectitude.

My teacher used the Garfield in the window analogy, if I don’t see it it’s not there.

I'll go watch the podcast.

so accurate.

And then be legitimately shocked when the shit right in front of their faces is brought to light...

And it's no one's FAULT but the SOCIETY who perpetuates this shit. Continuously. Toxic masculinity.


It's the only voice I have at this point. Start with "Missing 1st Episode, Pt1"

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and then there's this folder with documents and screenshots and the raw recordings, etc : https://we.tl/t-b2vnSxjlc2

Like, I'm absolutely telling the truth, and beyond frustrated.

Rabble, you and I share a lot of the same crazy stories with the ex.

My former nutbag created a FAKE obituary in the Washington Post to pretend that she died and sent it to me pretending to be her ex-husband to see if I still cared. I sent it to the prosecutor's office and the Post pulled the fake obit. That was only the tip of the iceberg.

ROFL

Scho got that dick game.

JFC, I'll bet she was a narcissist with BPD, right?

And none if it was "her fault", right? You MADE her do that by not talking to her...

Dude, it makes the crazy ones go absolutely BATSHIT insane when it gets taken away, too. Holy ****nuts.

I've had my fair share of 2am cutting pictures.

I'd still play with fire, but I hope I've left that level of insane behind.

She claimed her father molested her between 8-12 years old. She was a cutter, binge/purge, chronic liar, stole money from her Mom and I. She was the most horrific and disgusting human being I ever met. 9 months of hell she caused me: legal issues, financial issues, work issues, mental stress issues, family and friends issues, physical health issues. I stayed away from women for over 6 years due to the damage she caused.

She also was on a heavy dose of Benzodiazepines and drank heavily. The mood swings were so scary. There was a one month period near the end that I was afraid for my life.

Goddamn, we may have been with the same woman.

She was stealing my Xanax and pilfering them...but eating so many that I didn't realize she was stealing them.

Drinking on them every day...cutting, lying, stealing, porn addict, total nymphomaniac who is seemingly constitutionally incapable of telling a man "no" (which is why I have no PROOF that she's ****ed her students, but...she's a special needs teacher who has non-oral autistic kids, ya know? Who don't talk...and she's addicted to acceptance and validation through the illusion of what she thinks love is...so you do the math.)

Ruined me financially, socially, sexually, spiritually, and physically. She was going to kill me at some point, either by just snapping and staging it as self-defense (SHOCKINGLY easy for a woman to do) or the stress combined with cocaethylene toxicity was going to make my pancreas explode before any cancer could set in...

Them podcasts are a good listen for anyone who cares about :

Men's rights
rights of the abused
journey through self-actualization
holding courts and/or our justice system and police accountable
unprocessed trauma
perceptions of drug use in our society

Buddy, that fire ain't been hot enough then...because IF I'm ever in a relationship again (2 years later, I'm JUST talking about it openly and really moving on with life and have moved past the "NEVER AGAIN"" phase...and not dumb enough to believe that it will never happen again, but probably JUST DUMB ENOUGH to try one more time ROFL) it will be with someone who is accountable and will not repeatedly put me in any ****ed off situations on purpose.