Originally Posted by mcan
I was an emergency C-Section. I think I do have some stability issues. I have "intimacy" issues and tend to not think that any girl is good enough. I'm great with people, but TERRIBLE with relationships. My brain just goes on overload when I'm finally around any girl that I ACTUALLY like, and I act like a tool.
When my brother was born (since I had so many birth complications) they didn't even try natural birth. Now that he's in his twenties, he has real emotional problems. He has MAJOR issues with self-control, and acts on instinct often in terribly inappropriate ways. He came out of the closet when he first entered high school (to the family but not to his friends). Naturally, my parents didn't want to hear that and put him in counseling. So, he kept on trying to be straight for 4 years. He had one girlfriend that whole time. After four years, they were a typical couple. They had regular sex, spent TONS of time togther, knew the families, and my bro was even shopping for rings. But, one summer he decided to tell her... "I'm gay, we have to break up." She was devestated and broken. They were really in love too. He was just more attracted to men than her. Very strange (but I guess pretty common) story.
I would think that being a C-section has nothing to do with these kinds of issues, and I would expect that every family has their problems of this sort. If there is blame to be given I would expect that it has more to do with the fact that there has not been a SINGLE healthy man-woman relationship in our family or extended family for us to look up to growing up. My parents were both alcoholics and threw things at each other. My grandfather on my Mom's side died when we were very young, but I hear that he was abusive and alcoholic. My grandfather on my Dad's side I guess was an extreme drunk and (may or may not) have done some things to my aunt when she was a little girl. Of course there was a divorce there, and my grandmother's new husband is a great guy but she yells at him constantly and they sleep in seperate rooms. We also lived in a rather poor neighborhood where there were a lot of single parents and other alcoholic parents. The kids in my neighborhood were for the most part neglected.
Anyway I have some emotional issues, but overall I think I'm a pretty awesome guy and have turned into a pretty normal and functioning member of society despite a very tough childhood. Of course, I swore off alcohol when I was in grade school, and kept that promise to myself. I'm 25 now and I've never had a drink of anything because I hate the stuff and blame it for all my parents' problems, and pretty much most of the problems of the world.
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