I hope what I had to say helps some one understand that it's not worth it to put yourself through it on your own. I didn't want to ask for help and kept things bottled up. I kept things stewing in my head for the longest time and the thoughts mount up vigurously to a point of no return. That is when it gets scarry and no hope seems to overwhelm the mind. I don't understand it myself as to why? I got much to live for we all do.

Give yourself and your mind a break let what ever it is out to someone. Even tell your dog he will listen then go tell someone.

Go treat yourself to Oreo cookies and a tall glass of milk. Forgiveness is a big part of it for me. I got to forgive myself and others who I feel harmed me. I got to ask for forgiveness from people who I may have hurt. Nobody is perfect nor can we be.

Thanks for sharing it with us, bro. Take care, and be well.

Meet Scott Peeholi in a parking lot and use better aim?

Same here.

Go to a doctor.

KC Tattoo thanks for sharing. I have gone down this road with my wife, we have no kids, and over the last few years and doing good now. Thanks for sharing. Mental illness is real people. From your timeline we are about the same age. Good luck with your life going forward. If you need to talk PM me for my number.

Dude, I'd be proud to know you.

The amazing thing about a story like this is that the point of the story isn't really about how sick you were. The point of the story is about how well you are – spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically – for the first time in your adult life.

We may be weak, sick and broken before recovery, and there can be a lot of setbacks on the way to our ultimate goal, but because of everything we get to experience in the recovery process, we end up stronger and healthier than most normal folks ever dream a person can be.

You have balls the size of cement mixers, man. Stay strong, brother.

Unless the person is bipolar; in that case, SSRIs can send the person on a moon shot.

Had one of my closest friends in life blow his brains out not too long ago. Hell seems like yesterday. Over what? A woman and a house as far as I know. Certainly could have been more going on that I didn't know about.

I gotta admit, I'm pissed at him for not just packing a bag, saying '**** it' and come crash at my place till things straightened out. Which they would have.

Your life isn't just about you. When your up you bring everyone around you up and when your down you bring everyone around you down. Do it for 'them' whoever 'them' may be.

Hang in there, life is a roller coaster not a train track.

Check in with us soon, munkey... long absences are worrying.

Thanks for the words of inspiration and hope, KC Tattoo.

Wow. KC Tatoo. Deep man. Glad you turned things around dude.

I'm ok...tired...really tired....update tomorrow

Thanks for letting us know. Get some rest.

Mr. KC Tattoo is a stud.

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