After Kcnut wakes up from his all night drunk complete with an excruciating hangover and reads some of the comments in this thread he might need to be on suicide watch.
Seriously Kcnut, take some of your writings to someone you can trust in that field ask them to read it and to get back with you for an honest opinion on your writings. Tell him to give you the truth but more importantly how you can improve them.
Try to get better at what you do. Im sure even Michalanglo screwed up a few paintings before he became great.