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I used to be so thrilled as a kid around Christmas now I just feel like it's another day of the year. Reminiscing about the good times waking up on Christmas day to see what Santa left has come down to a "who gives a shit" attitude about the holiday. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a scrooge. I just don't feel like I used to anymore. Plus my birthday is in a couple days and I just want it to come and go like every other day. I guess I'm a bit depressed. I'm going to be 38 and I really don't feel human anymore. Numb is the best word I can come up with for what I feel like. It's been a shitty year for me. Lost a job too only to get another that I'm over qualified for. Going from a IT Admin job to stocking shelves at Walmart sure cuts down my confidence factor. I'm sure something will pickup somewhere, maybe. Eh, what the hell do I care anymore. At least I have the planet to share my pain with. Not that many care, it's just good to get it out.
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