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Originally Posted by MTG#10

I dont know why Im posting this thread, just need to vent. I know I shouldnt be feeling this way, its been almost a year since my wife left but I feel like I just missed the birth of my own child. I knew it was going to happen soon and I thought I was mentally prepared but when her dad called me and told me this morning I quickly realized I wasn't. I cant believe I still love her after everything she's done to me and put me through both emotionally and financially. I would take her back and help her raise her baby in a heartbeat. Thats how much I love her. ****ing pathetic I know. When's this shit going to end? Its been 10 months and it still hurts just as much as the day I found out. Its so hard to keep face in front of my kids, they are so excited to have a new baby sister and I have to pretend Im happy and excited for them but its killing me. I know I have to be strong for my kids and I will but when they are gone I dont know what to do.

Have you gone to therapy? You probably should. Not because anything you said was particularly pathetic. I actually think it's not that unusual. But because it's making you FEEL pathetic.

Go talk to someone about why this happened and why it's so hard for you to move on. You will do yourself a huge favor and then someday will be ready for a woman who actually deserves you.