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Originally Posted by FAX
Or very smart.
Apparently, I have an addictive personality ... if one's good, two must be better type of thing. That's how I wound up on such high dosages ... I have never, ever experienced anything like this, though. It's incomprehensible, frankly. I feel like I've been blasted with a shit cannon. Ick, indeed, Mr. Donger.
Funny thing, though. I have songs ... new ones ... running through my mind like I can't remember ... as though my subconscious is reactivating or something. Incredible and unexplainable.
My sincere appreciation and love goes out to you guys for your support.
I'm gonna go get some exercise.
FAX
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I had a post written earlier, but never got it posted, and it was about how all of your senses were going to return, and hit you all at once. That feeling of chills that runs up your spine, and over your head when you hear "that" song/songs. You are going to feel emotions that you forgot you had, actually I'm sure you already are. I cried tears for the first time since my best friend died 7 years ago. I actually would well up about once a day while listening to music. A lot of that had to do with the fact that my mother was an addict, and our lives as children were severely affected by it, and I swore I would never let that happen to me..........and I did.
It still gives me a little knot in my throat.
"So I swallow these capsules
to regain my grip
And I swallowed myself sick"
And I inherited my health"
couldn't find a better way to lie"
I met my beautiful GF at the peak of my addiction, and lied to her about it for 7 months. When I came out of it, she said she didn't even know who I was, and neither did I. She was right. I was back on within 10 days.
Thankfully she has come to love me for who I really am.