You are both ****ed up, and I give your potential marriage about a 5% chance of succeeding. If you're engaged, and you're just now seeing "A side of her you've never seen", then that should be a huge red flag. Your insecurity and need to check her messages is a clear sign that you are in no way ready for marriage at this time. And her "Other side" indicates that she's not being open with you about much of what she feels. This is just all ****ed up from every approach. Neither of you sound like you should be considering marriage. No offense of course. Merry Christmas.
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