[Sully]

It's difficult.
I've had several "cheats," which I'm pretty ashamed of. The difference is that in prior quitting attempts, once I fell off I was like, "**** it," and went back to it.
I was talking about it to my wife, and it's funny... I'm almost going through a type of mourning. I'm so gonna miss so many times that a cig felt so good. I'm gonna miss the "excuse" to step away from the world for 3-5 minutes at a time.
I've tried to focus on two things. I really liked Phil's advice about not going to places I can get cigs. That's difficult since my truck uses gas, but that's helped. The other focus is to try and live in the "now" rather than worrying about all those prime smoking times in the future I'll miss (this is a problem I have in every area of my life, however).

So, the tl;dr version is this. I've ****ed up several times. I feel shitty about it. But I'm still committed to this and I'm still working toward my goal of being smoke free.