Marriage, divorce, etc...

[Katipan]

Originally Posted by keg in kc

Ohh, "lazy and has no ambition". God, I shouldn't let myself get started on that.

Not everybody is built to be a captain of industry, and not everybody values the same kind of things, or wants the same stuff out of life. I'll use myself for an example. I have one dream right now: I want to write a novel. Why? To prove to myself that I can do it. Not that selling it wouldn't be a nice thing, too, of course. But I'm more interesting in proving something to myself. That's my one and only ambition.

Problem is, no matter how much I work at it, I'm not going to make any money for the hours I spend working toward that goal. Not now.

But, in the eyes of...everybody (including myself, sometimes, because peer pressure is a bitch, even at my old age), I'm lazy. No ambition. The general consensus is that I should give up this one thing that I want in my life and step onto the corprate treadmill, while away my life doing something I don't give a damn about.

And that bugs me, sometimes. What is life supposed to be about, and when did "happiness" or even "contentness" stop being a part of that?

But I digress. I've got to take myself to my "real" job now, and do something I'm really sick of doing for the next 6 or 8 hours, something I don't care a whit about except for the fact that I believe that whatever kind of work I do, it has to be good.

See, I don't like the people around you. I think I'd like to give them a swift kick in the nuts.

I want to write a book. But I'm in my late 20s. I look at it as I have all the time in the world. Right now my life is about building the foundation for my kids until I send them off to school. Then it'll be all about my dreams.

If anyone has called me anything negative because I've delayed a goal, it certainly wasn't anywhere I could hear it.

TIIIIIIIIIIIME is on your side.