Please, prayers to my family

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.


Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words..... I still do not know how I can get through this. Zachary is my little man; Thank God for my daughter or would have nothing to lift my spirits.




Our church; which was destroyed by arson, St. Davids in Topeka is where any donations can be sent. In the process of rebuilding they will be constructing a playground. They are going to name it "Zachary's Playground". I can not begin to tell you how deeply moved my family is by this gesture.

St. Davids Episcopal Church
"Zachary's Playground"
3916 SW 17th St.
Topeka, Kansas
66604


Again thank you all for you thoughts and prayers.

[mikeyis4dcats.]

sorry to hear about your loss, nothing I can ever say will make you feel better, but you are in my prayers

[007]

You have them friend. I am so sorry for you and your entire families loss.

[siberian khatru]

Nothing I can say other than, my heart and prayers go out to you.

[FAX]

Very, very sorry to hear this, Mr. Chiefs_Mike_Topeka. Very sorry.

May God cast his peace upon you and yours.

FAX

[Phobia]

OMG! That's terrible. I can't begin to imagine. If there's anything else we can do, please don't hesitate to ask.

[Smed1065]

My thoughts out to you and your family.

[Frazod]

That's so awful I don't even know what to say. :( You will be in our prayers.

[KurtCobain]

That's horrible. You are in my prayers.

[Mile High Mania]

I am at a complete loss for words and cannot imagine the pain you are dealing with right now... our prayers are with you.

[ClevelandBronco]

I can't imagine. My most heartfelt prayers to you and your family.

You might want to check these out when you're ready:

http://www.hannah.org/childloss.htm

http://www.firstcandle.org/whenababy/when_cop_par.html

I'm just so sorry.

[Chiefnj2]

I don't know what to say. I can't imagine what you are going through. My prayers and my sincerest and deepest sympathy to you and your family.

[plbrdude]

our prayers go up for you. so sorry to hear of your loss.

[morphius]

I'm truly sorry to hear that. That is just terrible, I really don't know what else to say but you are in our prayers.

man.

[Brianfo]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Children are what it's all about. You and your family are in my prayers. God bless.

[NewChief]

Absolutely heart wrenching. There's nothing more I can say, except that you're in my family's prayers.

[LOCOChief]

I'm very sorry, my family is praying for you.

[Iowanian]

I can't imagine.

Every families nightmare.

May your family find peace.

[Simply Red]

Prayers are certainly coming your way in numbers.

[Rain Man]

I'm so sorry to hear this. My sympathies to you and your family.

[mikey23545]

I am sorry for you beyond words. I realize I don't even know you, but my heart just broke when I read this post.

I wish so much I could somehow lend you and your family the strength you must surely need right now. I hope you and your wife will draw close at this time of need, and support each other.

You have my very deepest sympathies.

[go bo]

prayers and good thoughts coming your way...

[DaFace]

So sorry to hear that, man. I can't even imagine. You're in my thoughts.


I can't imagine. My most heartfelt prayers to you and your family.

You might want to check these out when you're ready:

http://www.hannah.org/childloss.htm

http://www.firstcandle.org/whenababy/when_cop_par.html

I'm just so sorry.

Definitely don't hesitate to look into these when you're ready. I've been doing some work with the Colorado SIDS Program out here lately, and it's really opened up my eyes to how helpful talking to someone can be for a family going through such a tragedy. There are a number of organizations around that are more than happy to help you through such a difficult time. Just let me know if you have any trouble finding someone to talk to if you need it.

Here's another to add to your list:
http://geocities.com/tcftopeka/index.html

[stevieray]

May God be with you and your family.

:(

[DaneMcCloud]

You have my deepest, heartfelt sympathies.

[Dunit35]

So sorry for your loss.

You and your family are in our prayers.

[SPchief]

Very sorry to hear this news. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family on this depressing situation.

[BigMeatballDave]

I cannot imagine ANYTHING more painful than losing a child. I am so sorry for your loss...

[88TG88]

I"m so sorry for your loss.

[big nasty kcnut]

Mike may your child go up in heaven where there love from his loved ones and may the lord bless him and your family with piece of mind.

[cdcox]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Way too sad for words.

God bless Zachary.

God bless your family.

[cookster50]

Holy crap man, sorry to hear about that. It really hits close to home as I have a 6 month old and can't imagine what you are going through.

[Braincase]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

[Bugeater]

Wow, I'm devastated for you...that's very sad to hear. I can't even imagine what you and your family are going through.

[Future35]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.
sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my payers.

[Hog's Gone Fishin]

I honestly have tears in my eyes as I type this. May God Bless your son, you and your family. I can't even imagine what you must be going through. Keep the faith.

[El Jefe]

Man I cant imagine how crushing that would be, I honestly symphathize with you. I will pray for you and your family, I am very very sorry to hear that. My parents had to deal with a loss of a child after delivery but not that old, man im sorry.

[KCFalcon59]

May God bless Zachary and comfort you and your family in this terrible time. I am sorry for your loss.

[The Red Sea]

I also have a tear in my eye as I even try to comprehend going thru this.
May God bless you & your family my prayers are with you.

[WARPARTY70]

So very sorry for your loss, You and your family are in our prayers

[Bowser]

Absolutely terrible. Sincerest condolences to your family.

[Dave Lane]

Warm thoughts your way sorry to hear that thats completely awful...

Dave

[Fire Me Boy!]

My deepest sympathies to you and yours.

[Buddy Rich]

May God bless you and yours. I don't know you from a hole in the wall but can honestly say this has hurt my heart.

[Mr. Flopnuts]

I could never begin to imagine..........I'm so sorry that you and your family are having to go through this right now. You all have my prayers, and may God bless each and every one of you for a lifetime. So tragic.

[NUMBER7]

I am so sorry to hear my wife and I will both be praying for you and your family at this hour of need.

[Chief Henry]

I don't know what to say Mike...But my family will pray for your son and your family.

[Frazod]

Is there any sort of fund set up that we could send donations to?

[R&GHomer]

I'm so sorry for you and your family’s loss. Words can’t comfort what you must be going through. My family’s prayers are with you. God Bless.

[L.A. Chieffan]

As a father of two I can only imagine the pain that your family is experiencing right now. Please accept my condolences.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Is there any sort of fund set up that we could send donations to?


Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words..... I still do not know how I can get through this. Zachary is my little man; Thank God for my daughter or would have nothing to lift my spirits.




Our church; which was destroyed by arson, St. Davids in Topeka is where any donations can be sent. In the process of rebuilding they will be constructing a playground. They are going to name it "Zachary's Playground". I can not begin to tell you how deeply moved my family is by this gesture.

St. Davids Episcopal Church
"Zachary's Playground"
3916 SW 17th St.
Topeka, Kansas
66604


Again thank you all for you thoughts and prayers.

[SLAG]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words..... I still do not know how I can get through this. Zachary is my little man; Thank God for my daughter or would have nothing to lift my spirits.




Our church; which was destroyed by arson, St. Davids in Topeka is where any donations can be sent. In the process of rebuilding they will be constructing a playground. They are going to name it "Zachary's Playground". I can not begin to tell you how deeply moved my family is by this gesture.

St. Davids Episcopal Church
"Zachary's Playground"
3916 SW 17th St.
Topeka, Kansas
66604


Again thank you all for you thoughts and prayers.


Requiem æternam dona eis, Domine, et lux perpetua luceat eis.

[a1na2]

I cannot imagine your heartbreak. I will keep your family in my prayers and also put your son's name on the list at church, that his family will always remember him as he waits for the reunion we all hope to have.

[bogie]

Oh my God. I'm so sorry for you and your family. There's nothing I can say that will help. I'm very, very sorry. Zachary will always be in your dreams.

[memyselfI]

I don't know what to say...

I'm so sorry about your loss. I cannot even imagine the pain such a tragedy would cause. I wish there was something more that I could do than pray but needless to say you and your family are in my prayers.

[Ebolapox]

I can't even imagine... I'm not a religious person, but I'll say a prayer for you and hope that you and your family are able to make it through this horrible loss...

[Splat420]

I'm truly sorry to hear that your family will be in my prays.

[tommykat]

Reach out to me if I can help....get my pm to you. He will be a godsend, I promise. You are all in my prayers.

[ROYC75]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.

Oh My, May God give you the peace and comfort to face this, we are lost for words and our hearts go out to you and yours.

Our best thoughts and prayers and if there is anything we can do, ask, God Bless you and the family, Rest in Peace Lil Zachary........

[PinkFloyd]

I'm so sorry for you and your families lose... There's no words that anyone can say to make things better... Only time will heal, but you will always have him in your minds for an eternity... Hang in there, and your always free to PM any of us if you feel the need too... Stay strong, as I'm sure he's looking down on you wanting you to be strong...

[Coach]

Prayers sent towards your way and the family....

That sucks man. :(

[KC Jones]

Every parents worst nightmare... may God bless and watch over your family Mike.

[007]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words..... I still do not know how I can get through this. Zachary is my little man; Thank God for my daughter or would have nothing to lift my spirits.




Our church; which was destroyed by arson, St. Davids in Topeka is where any donations can be sent. In the process of rebuilding they will be constructing a playground. They are going to name it "Zachary's Playground". I can not begin to tell you how deeply moved my family is by this gesture.

St. Davids Episcopal Church
"Zachary's Playground"
3916 SW 17th St.
Topeka, Kansas
66604


Again thank you all for you thoughts and prayers.
What an amazing gesture of love. I was so upset when your church fell victim to arson. It is great to know the resolve in your congregation. That resolve will live in you and your family too.

God Bless.

[vincent]

My deepest condolences.

May god bless you and yours.

[Flustrated]

Stay strong bro, know he is in a better place. God bless your family.

[boogblaster]

God damit I fell for you buddy..stay strong, life shits on us sometimes, but he's in a better place now...

[Micjones]

God bless you and your family.

[Jilly]

6 months is not near enough time....but I bet in that short amount of time there will be so much that he left in your heart...

May peace be with you, strength surround you and love enfold you...always.

[bringbackmarty]

God bless you, My most sincere condolences, be strong for your family if you can. Will keep you in my prayers.

[stumppy]

I'm very sorry for your loss. I wis I could do more than just telling you.
Be strong for your family and remember that you will see him again.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Could someone with photoshop please pm me. I need the red eye of the last picture of my son removed. My photo editing software will not remove it all.

Thank you again all for your thoughts and prayers.

[Buehler445]

Hey man, I can't even imagine what you are going through. I wish you the best buddy. I'm praying for you.

[Coach]

Could someone with photoshop please pm me. I need the red eye of the last picture of my son removed. My photo editing software will not remove it all.

Thank you again all for your thoughts and prayers.

Hope you're hanging in there, friend. If you do not mind me asking, have they determined what was the cause? If you don't want to answer, nor feel to answer, I understand and respect that.

Again, prayers are sent to you and your family.

[grandllamajr]

I'm sorry for your loss

It might have been SIDS

You and your son are in my prayers

[HemiEd]

I just noticed this thread. So sorry for your loss, not much I can say, lost for words, prayers to you and your family.

[Lzen]

Our prayers for you and your family.

[Mr. Kotter]

Wow...I've been away from the Planet a lot lately, so I just saw this. I'm so sorry to hear about this, man. I cannot even fathom the unbelievable grief you must feel. I don't think anyone who hasn't been there can even begin to imagine. Best wishes and Godspeed for you and yours in this time of pain.

[Inspector]

Prayer are done. My God, you must be strong. Stay that way for your family.

[KC-TBB]

You are in my families prayers.

[JohninGpt]

You got my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine what you and you family are going through, only that it must be the worst nightmare a parent could ever have. Stay strong.

[Fish]

more prayers....

[MikeTheWildcat]

Man, I feel for you and your family. You are in our prays.

[Logical]

I cannot even begin to perceive the hurt and pain you must feel. I am thinking of you and will have you in my thoughts for a quick emotional recovery.

[Oh Snap]

this is sad.. hang in there man.. my thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

[ChiTown]

Mike

I'm not sure how I missed this at the top, but man, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers.

[KC Kings]

You have been in my families prayers.

Six months old is a pretty cool age. They go from a crying and pooping infant, to a little person developing their own personality. I have an 8 month old right now and the only thing I can even try to say, is try to stay strong for your family.

Most people die of old age, so I figure heaven is full of senior citizens. You must be miserable right now, but you will get to spend eternity with a completely innocent baby boy.

[ZepSinger]

I am so sorry. As a father, I simply cannot imagine the pain you're feeling. I will certainly pray for you and your family in this horrible time. Rest assured, that little guy is heaven and will be waiting there for his parents to come home.

Z

[KCFalcon59]

Don't Cry for me Daddy

Don't cry for me Daddy,
I am right here.
Although you can't see me,
I see your tears.

I visit you often,
I go to work with you each day,
And when it's time to close your eyes,
On your pillow is where I lay.

I hold your hand and stroke your hair,
And whisper in your ear.
If your sad today Daddy
Remember I am here.

God took me home,
This we know is true.
But you'll always be my Daddy,
Even though I'm not with you.

I am Daddy's little boy,
We will never be apart,
For every time you think of me,
Please know I'm in your heart.

~Author Unknown~

[DanT]

My sympathies on your loss, Chiefs_Mike_Topeka. You and your family are in my prayers.

[PHOG]

Oh man, my thoughts and prayers are going out for you as of right now..

Please stay strong for your family as well.

[mlyonsd]

I'm very sorry for you and your family. I hope you find peace.

[KevB]

Also a father here (3 little ones)....I'll give of them each an extra kiss tonight and say a little prayer for you and your family. Don't let it eat you up, confide in friends and family -- lean on them and allow your wife to lean on you. Good luck in the days ahead.

[Joie]

You and your family are definitely in my thoughts. My niece Samantha passed away in her sleep on December 27, 1989. She was two months old. I was ten, and had a very hard time understanding. Someone told me that she was so beautiful and so perfect, that God needed her to be with Him. It doesn't take the pain away, but God needed Zachary, too.

[htismaqe]

My cousin died of SIDS sometime back. It's an absolutely devastating experience for everyone involved.

Thought and prayers go out to you and your family.

[AZChief]

you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers. stay strong.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Zachary I miss you Little Man. I Love You.

I have always liked this song.

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[Phobia]

Did you know Clapton lost a 4 year old son in a freak accident in 91? I presume that's what the song is about.

[Gracie Dean]

I am so sorry. Our family has your family in our prayers

[Mr. Kotter]

Did you know Clapton lost a 4 year old son in a freak accident in 91? I presume that's what the song is about.

I knew he lost a kid, but I wasn't sure of the year. That song is a tear jerker to be sure....for anyone who's been a parent.

[KS Smitty]

Peace to you and yours my fellow Chiefs fan. I cannot fathom your grief, be strong and don't be afraid to reach out.

[mikeyis4dcats.]

Mike,

As a fellow St. Davidian, please let the parish know if there is anything else you need. We are all here for you in your time of need.

[Frankie]

Wow! For some reason I missed this thread totally. I'm sorry about that. But I'm way more sorry about your loss. What a tragedy! And what a test by life! Mike, I wish you and your family great strength. My thoughts are with you.

[RoyalsRule]

absolutely horrible. sorry to hear about your loss.

[KCinNY]

I've got a one year old little girl and I can't begin to fathom what you and your family are going through right now.

Like everyone else, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

I'm so sorry.

[Joe Seahawk]

God bless you and your family, I cannot begin to imagine the grief you must be feeling. I'm so sorry.

Stay strong my friend..

[Dallas Chief]

Peace be with you and your family brother. I'll keep you in my prayers...

[Brady3]

ZXVXCZV

[KcMizzou]

I don't really know what to say about what happened. I don't think anything typed here would help much.

I'm sorry, man...

[Hydrae]

I guess God had a need for him and took him home early. Remember that it is part of God's plan however hard it is for our poor human minds to understand. Try to take comfort that he is where he belongs, with the angels.

[Gonzo]

My sympathies Mike.

Hang in there....

[KC4EVER]

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family, I can only imagine what you could be going through, try to stay strong and know that god has a plan for all of us!

[alpha_omega]

All of our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

[SCChief]

My condolences and prayers. God bless you and your family in this time.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

I Thank all you of you for your thoughts and prayers..... I have shared all of them with my wife and she is very touched by your words. They are helping; each and every one of you are appreciated.

[tommykat]

I Thank all you of you for your thoughts and prayers..... I have shared all of them with my wife and she is very touched by your words. They are helping; each and every one of you are appreciated.

This is the simple me: Zac's journey was short but God said "come home my child". His journey was over and he did what he was suspose to do on earth. Now Zac has a new journey and one day we will all understand. My prayers to you all.

[Gracie Dean]

I Thank all you of you for your thoughts and prayers..... I have shared all of them with my wife and she is very touched by your words. They are helping; each and every one of you are appreciated.


Is there anything you need?

someone to come help clean house, cook?

[Andoverer]

I'm so sorry. God be with you and your wife. Hopefully these words of comfort from all of us here will help you at least a little.

[Steve]

You have my prayers.I wish I knew something to tell you that would help.

[RJ]

God bless you and yours, Mike Topeka. Such a sad thing.

[The One in PR]

Sorry about your kid my young brother, be strong He will always be with you.

[Bwana]

Sorry to hear that Mike, what a terrible tragedy for you and your family. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.

[Pitt Gorilla]

I am so sorry. My children are my life and I just can't imagine what you are going through. God be with you and your family.

[Chiefs=Champions]

I’m so sorry to hear about your tragedy mate. My prayers go out to you and your family.

[tooge]

Be strong . My deepest sympathy to you and your family. I am heartbroken to hear this. God Bless. My families prayers are with you.

[Halfcan]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.

Dang you just brought tears to my eyes. Sorry about your loss. That happened to some good friends of mine. It just such a tragedy, that words can't begin to explain. Best wishes to you and your family.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Today marks 1 week since I buried my son. My pain is no less and my sorrow is deeper. It is literally a minute by minute process just to get through the days. I am so thankful for my daughter and her innocence, she is the only thing that can brighten my days. I still struggle however to try and control my emotions around her because it frightens her. She is not used to seeing her daddy this way.

We are still not sure the cause; other than it will ultimately be asphyxiation; whether it was SIDS or some other cause we are not sure. Our Dr. told us that structurally all his organs were fine and did not show any form of disease that would have caused his death. It kills me to think of my little boy gasping for air and not being able to breath, with no help. I am haunted by this thought. I am his daddy, I always promised to never let anything hurt him. And I wasn't there to protect him. I am sorry Zachary.


Zachary my little man, I ache to hold you, I wish I could hear your laugh, see your smile, and feel your little hand squeeze my finger. To hold you close and feel your heartbeat against my chest as rocked you to sleep. To stroke your hair and kiss your cheek. I can not begin to explain how much I miss you and wish I could take your place and bring you back to your mother, she is lost without you.

Zachary, you are missed, remembered, mourned, and prayed for. But most of all you are loved.


God Bless you.

Please everyone with children, hold them tight. Never pass up a chance to love them, hold them and be with them. There is nothing more important in this life. My wish for everyone is that they never have to experience this pain and overwhelming feeling of loss. And please take care of your children; they are truely precious and a treasure, treat them like it.

[DaFace]

I am his daddy, I always promised to never let anything hurt him. And I wasn't there to protect him. I am sorry Zachary.

I would hope that someone has already told you this, but you need to understand that it is NOT your fault - there's nothing you could have done, unfortunately.

Hang in there, man.

[KCFalcon59]

Today marks 1 week since I buried my son. My pain is no less and my sorrow is deeper. It is literally a minute by minute process just to get through the days. I am so thankful for my daughter and her innocence, she is the only thing that can brighten my days. I still struggle however to try and control my emotions around her because it frightens her. She is not used to seeing her daddy this way.

We are still not sure the cause; other than it will ultimately be asphyxiation; whether it was SIDS or some other cause we are not sure. Our Dr. told us that structurally all his organs were fine and did not show any form of disease that would have caused his death. It kills me to think of my little boy gasping for air and not being able to breath, with no help. I am haunted by this thought. I am his daddy, I always promised to never let anything hurt him. And I wasn't there to protect him. I am sorry Zachary.


Zachary my little man, I ache to hold you, I wish I could hear your laugh, see your smile, and feel your little hand squeeze my finger. To hold you close and feel your heartbeat against my chest as rocked you to sleep. To stroke your hair and kiss your cheek. I can not begin to explain how much I miss you and wish I could take your place and bring you back to your mother, she is lost without you.

Zachary, you are missed, remembered, mourned, and prayed for. But most of all you are loved.


God Bless you.

Please everyone with children, hold them tight. Never pass up a chance to love them, hold them and be with them. There is nothing more important in this life. My wish for everyone is that they never have to experience this pain and overwhelming feeling of loss. And please take care of your children; they are truely precious and a treasure, treat them like it.
I can't imagine what you're going through. But be assured that you are not at fault. This is the most difficult thing you and your family will face. Be strong. Know that many prayers are being said for you all. You have already showed great courage to share this with us. Our prayers will continue and we hope that the pain you and your family are going through will ease in time. God bless you all, ease your pain, and know that Zachary is in a better place. Have faith in God and he will carry you through this hardship.

[morphius]

I would hope that someone has already told you this, but you need to understand that it is NOT your fault - there's nothing you could have done, unfortunately.

Hang in there, man.
Exactly. No matter how many times you go over it in your head, in reality, there is nothing you would have really done different.

You will blame yourself for it, that is just human nature, but it just wasn't your fault.

[Pitt Gorilla]

I know you would take his place in a heartbeat; I think just about every dad would for their babies. You must understand that there are others who need you now more than ever. God bless you in this time of heartache.

[Brianfo]

I know that it's so hard to understand, but God has a plan and he will not give you more than you can handle. I will pray for you and your family. I don't even know you, but I assure you that my heart aches for you. I have 3 small children of my own and I am glad that you have reminded me to never take them for granted. Take Care and feel free to come to the Planet to get things off your mind. It can be therapuetic.

[PastorMikH]

Sorry about your loss Topeka Mike. I can't even begin to imagine what I'd do if something happened to one of mine. You and your family will be in our prayers.

[chiefs4me]

I still don't have the words..I am so very sorry, and can't imagine what you feel...my prayers go to you and your family..:(

[Mr. Kotter]

....Please everyone with children, hold them tight. Never pass up a chance to love them, hold them and be with them. There is nothing more important in this life. My wish for everyone is that they never have to experience this pain and overwhelming feeling of loss. And please take care of your children; they are truely precious and a treasure, treat them like it.

Thank you, Mike. :(

Honestly, I just went to the bedside of each of my four....two beautiful daughters, and two wonderful sons....and said a brief prayer, with you in mind. Thanks, Mike. :clap:

[Calcountry]

I feel a pain in my gut, but it pales in comparison to what you must be going through. My deepest sympathies and prayers are with you and your family.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

My worst fears were realized yesterday. Since I lost my son I had hoped and prayed that it was that God forsaken SIDS; and that my son did not suffer.

I had a feeling in my gut though that SIDS was not the cause. The sitter found my son pinned between the mattress and footboard of her daughters bed. The only part of my son that was not pinned was his little left arm.

My wife and I told her numerous times not to put him to sleep on a bed; she always assured us she didn't. From the information the detective gave us, she checked on him at 1 and he was fine. Then at 2:30 A ****ING HOUR AND HALF LATER, after she did her laundry and "did some things on the computer" she went to check on him. Her 13 y/o daughter and her 9 month old neice were playing on the bed and did not even know my son was there! So there is no way to know how long my son had been pinned there. I can only guess that he woke up and crawled, rolled to the edge and fell in. It haunts me to think about my son struggling, crying and needing help, and no one was there to save him.

So my beautiful wonderful son suffered and suffocated. The rage I have right now is unexplainable. There are so many instances of neglect I can't even breathe when I think about it. I am so sick right now.

I can't talk about it anymore right now..................

[ptlyon]

Prayers are with you and your family Mike

[greg63]

You and your family are in my prayers. I am so very sorry for your loss.

God Bless.

[stevieray]

My worst fears were realized yesterday. Since I lost my son I had hoped and prayed that it was that God forsaken SIDS; and that my son did not suffer.

I had a feeling in my gut though that SIDS was not the cause. The sitter found my son pinned between the mattress and footboard of her daughters bed. The only part of my son that was not pinned was his little left arm.

My wife and I told her numerous times not to put him to sleep on a bed; she always assured us she didn't. From the information the detective gave us, she checked on him at 1 and he was fine. Then at 2:30 A ****ING HOUR AND HALF LATER, after she did her laundry and "did some things on the computer" she went to check on him. Her 13 y/o daughter and her 9 month old neice were playing on the bed and did not even know my son was there! So there is no way to know how long my son had been pinned there. I can only guess that he woke up and crawled, rolled to the edge and fell in. It haunts me to think about my son struggling, crying and needing help, and no one was there to save him.

So my beautiful wonderful son suffered and suffocated. The rage I have right now is unexplainable. There are so many instances of neglect I can't even breathe when I think about it. I am so sick right now.

I can't talk about it anymore right now..................

Oh my God, Mike.... :(

[Radar Chief]

Holy crap Mike, I just read this topic and didn’t realize this was going on.
My deepest sympathies. I can’t imagine the pain/sorrow you must be going through.

[PhillyChiefFan]

I am truely and deeply sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[cookster50]

My worst fears were realized yesterday. Since I lost my son I had hoped and prayed that it was that God forsaken SIDS; and that my son did not suffer.

I had a feeling in my gut though that SIDS was not the cause. The sitter found my son pinned between the mattress and footboard of her daughters bed. The only part of my son that was not pinned was his little left arm.

So sorry to hear this, SIDS would be bad enough, but knowing it was due to something completely avoidable, just heart wrenching. Time will help......


:(

[ROYC75]

Oh my, Mike, this is just horrible as to how it happened. I'm lost for words....

God's speed man .......

[siberian khatru]

I think I'm gonna throw up.

I wish I could do something for you, Mike. I really do.

[Fire Me Boy!]

My worst fears were realized yesterday.
My deepest, deepest sympathies. I cannot fathom, but you will be in my thoughts.

[wutamess]

This story is similar to my next door neighbors story.

His sitter (14 at the time) turned the car on in the garage and left it on. His 7 yo (their only child together & his only child period) died in her sleep as a result of carbon monoxide.

He & his wife became depressed & now are alcoholics & drugheads and haven't fully recovered (which I understand). Please do any & everything you can to avoid becoming like them. Your little man wouldn't want you to become one. And your little girl needs her parents to still show her the ropes. Can't do that while an alchy & druggie.

Once again, sorry for your loss. Please keep things into perspective for the other little one.

[ChiTown]

Mike

Holy cow!

That's just a horrible vision of what probably transpired. Please try and find some level of peace and forgiveness. It's very easy for me to say this, I know, but it's your only way out of the hole you are in. God bless you and your family.

Pat

[bringbackmarty]

Please don't let this eat you up. Take as much time as you need. We are all praying for you. Peace be with you.

[Felch83]

MY goodness, I am so sorry for your loss. RIP to your child. My prayers are with you and your family.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Mike

Holy cow!

That's just a horrible vision of what probably transpired. Please try and find some level of peace and forgiveness. It's very easy for me to say this, I know, but it's your only way out of the hole you are in. God bless you and your family.

Pat


I appreciate your thoughts. I am not sure I can ever forgive; the anger and rage I have inside now knowing my little boy should still be here with me is almost unbearable. I know I should forgive, it would be better for me. I just don't think I can.

[plbrdude]

mike, my heart goes out to you and your family. you will continue to be in my prayers.

[Simplex3]

Please everyone with children, hold them tight. Never pass up a chance to love them, hold them and be with them. There is nothing more important in this life. My wish for everyone is that they never have to experience this pain and overwhelming feeling of loss. And please take care of your children; they are truely precious and a treasure, treat them like it.
Quoted for truth.

Hang in there.

[badgirl]

I just read your thread Simplex and my deepest prayers are with you and your family...I am so very sorry, my heart and prays will definately go out for you tonight for you.

[WilliamTheIrish]

I appreciate your thoughts. I am not sure I can ever forgive; the anger and rage I have inside now knowing my little boy should still be here with me is almost unbearable. I know I should forgive, it would be better for me. I just don't think I can.

Mike, take lots of time. One day at a time my friend. One hour at a time. One minute at a time.

There is a lot of anger and sorrow in that last post. And it's completely understandable. You may want to seek some outside assistance as you deal with these feelings. For your benefit Mike. Think about it, please.

Will

[KS Smitty]

Oh Mike, words fail me.

To lose a child must be the worst thing on this earth and to lose one so young...

Keep your daughter close to hand/heart and draw from her innocence and goodness to help heal your rage. I'm sure it will always be there but knowing that you and your wife trusted this caretaker for your son should also provide comfort in the fact that she wasn't deliberately negligent, nor were the girls that weren't aware of his presence.

Tragedies and accidents, they are a part of this life, how we react to them is the real test.

Mike be strong, you have our deepest sympathies for an unimaginable event, and continue to use this forum to vent. Don't keep things bottled up, it just hurts worse.

[blueballs]

Godbless

[BIG K]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.

My God, I cannot even begin to understand your loss. I am so sorry. My daughters and my prayers will include you and your family from now on. Zachary is now with God, and God is with you. Be strong for your wife and daughter dad. My heart goes to you and yours....

[babyblack94]

Sorry to hear about that. My heart goes out to you and your family.
This is coming all the way from Louisiana and The Saints.

Good Luck and I hope that you pull through. Keep God First and you will be O.K. :(

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

Oh Mike, words fail me.

To lose a child must be the worst thing on this earth and to lose one so young...

Keep your daughter close to hand/heart and draw from her innocence and goodness to help heal your rage. I'm sure it will always be there but knowing that you and your wife trusted this caretaker for your son should also provide comfort in the fact that she wasn't deliberately negligent, nor were the girls that weren't aware of his presence.

Tragedies and accidents, they are a part of this life, how we react to them is the real test.

Mike be strong, you have our deepest sympathies for an unimaginable event, and continue to use this forum to vent. Don't keep things bottled up, it just hurts worse.


Facts have come up that show otherwise. I can't go into details.

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since my little boy left us. I can't say it is any easier, still a minute to minute struggle. Not only am I missing my son but I also have great concern for my daughter and her mental state after this ordeal. She misses her little brother and does not quite comprehend why it happened. (Not that I can really comprehend it myself) There are so many things to deal with it seems at times I can't do it. Thank God for my daughter and wife, otherwise I don't think I would have the strength to get through the days.

[arrowheadnation]

Man, stories like this just tear me up. It's heart wrenching. I don't even know you nor could I even fathom the pain that you've been through, but just remember that God is your light and salvation. All of my prayers and condolences to your family.

[Phobia]

No disrespect to Mike, but do we really need prayer threads stuck for weeks upon weeks? I thought 24 hours was sufficient in the past and I never really had any complaints about it.

[morphius]

No disrespect to Mike, but do we really need prayer threads stuck for weeks upon weeks? I thought 24 hours was sufficient in the past and I never really had any complaints about it.
My rule is a week, but Mikes is sort of a special case as he is obviously having a hard time.

I'll take it down soon enough, if someone else doesn't.

[Logical]

I have to quit opening this thread, it brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it. I almost lost my first daughter and I will never forget that experience. Mike may you be blessed for the rest of your life to compensate you for this loss.

[bkkcoh]

Oh Mike, words fail me.

To lose a child must be the worst thing on this earth and to lose one so young...

Keep your daughter close to hand/heart and draw from her innocence and goodness to help heal your rage. I'm sure it will always be there but knowing that you and your wife trusted this caretaker for your son should also provide comfort in the fact that she wasn't deliberately negligent, nor were the girls that weren't aware of his presence.

Tragedies and accidents, they are a part of this life, how we react to them is the real test.

Mike be strong, you have our deepest sympathies for an unimaginable event, and continue to use this forum to vent. Don't keep things bottled up, it just hurts worse.

Well said.

thoughts and prayers are with you and family.

[Felch83]

No disrespect to Mike, but do we really need prayer threads stuck for weeks upon weeks? I thought 24 hours was sufficient in the past and I never really had any complaints about it.

Weak dude. :shake:

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

My rule is a week, but Mikes is sort of a special case as he is obviously having a hard time.

I'll take it down soon enough, if someone else doesn't.

Feel free to unsticky any time.

I have appreciated all the well wishes and prayers. If you were to wait until I am not having a hard time this thread would be a permanent fixture.

I do ask that people still send prayers to my family though, especially my daughter. She is going through alot, more than a 4 y/o should ever have to, and is dealing with alot of changes in her life.

Again Thank all of you.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

It has been one month today since my little man left us. It still feels like a horrible nightmare, one that I wish I could wake up from. The pain, grief, and anger still has yet to subside even a little. There is so many things I wanted to do and share with my son that I can't.

I feel like I am trying to put together a million piece jigsaw puzzle and the it keeps getting smashed back to pieces every couple days. And the most important part of the puzzle is missing.

I miss Zachary more than I can even begin to describe, my heart breaks even more every time that I see my wife laying completely in shambles and tears at Zachary's graveside. My heart aches almost unbearably when my precious little girl crawls in my lap starts crying and says she misses her little brother.

I don't know how I will ever be able to live with this pain and suffering; only that I know I must. I still struggle with a rage against our former daycare for the suffering her actions have inflicted on my family. How I will ever be able to cope with this anger is a completely mystery to me. I only know somehow, some way I must.

Everyone here that has sent their thoughts and prayers to my family please know I deeply appreciate them. I can't help but think that the very few moments in this past month that my family has been blessed by anything that alleviates our grief, even for a brief time, has been results of all the prayers all of you and others have sent us.

Again to every one with children; hold them tight, give them all the love you have and never take one moment with them for granted. They are absolutely the most precious and valuable part of your life.

Zachary, I miss you beyond comprehension, please watch out for your sister and mother and know that we love you without limits.

[BIG_DADDY]

It has been one month today since my little man left us. It still feels like a horrible nightmare, one that I wish I could wake up from. The pain, grief, and anger still has yet to subside even a little. There is so many things I wanted to do and share with my son that I can't.

I feel like I am trying to put together a million piece jigsaw puzzle and the it keeps getting smashed back to pieces every couple days. And the most important part of the puzzle is missing.

I miss Zachary more than I can even begin to describe, my heart breaks even more every time that I see my wife laying completely in shambles and tears at Zachary's graveside. My heart aches almost unbearably when my precious little girl crawls in my lap starts crying and says she misses her little brother.

I don't know how I will ever be able to live with this pain and suffering; only that I know I must. I still struggle with a rage against our former daycare for the suffering her actions have inflicted on my family. How I will ever be able to cope with this anger is a completely mystery to me. I only know somehow, some way I must.

Everyone here that has sent their thoughts and prayers to my family please know I deeply appreciate them. I can't help but think that the very few moments in this past month that my family has been blessed by anything that alleviates our grief, even for a brief time, has been results of all the prayers all of you and others have sent us.

Again to every one with children; hold them tight, give them all the love you have and never take one moment with them for granted. They are absolutely the most precious and valuable part of your life.

Zachary, I miss you beyond comprehension, please watch out for your sister and mother and know that we love you without limits.

WOW, how did I miss this? Just went through hell having our son. I have no idea what I would do if I lost him. God bless you and your family.

[morphius]

Still an absolutely heart crushing story.

Are you trying to get out and do things with your daughter, 'cause while nothing will really help, sitting around would only make it worse.

[kepp]

Facts have come up that show otherwise. I can't go into details.

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since my little boy left us. I can't say it is any easier, still a minute to minute struggle. Not only am I missing my son but I also have great concern for my daughter and her mental state after this ordeal. She misses her little brother and does not quite comprehend why it happened. (Not that I can really comprehend it myself) There are so many things to deal with it seems at times I can't do it. Thank God for my daughter and wife, otherwise I don't think I would have the strength to get through the days.
I'm am SO SORRY to hear this and I can't believe I didn't see it sooner. My family's thoughts & prayers are with your family.

If I may suggest something to try with your daughter that may help her in grieving. My wife had a miscarriage about a year-and-a-half ago when my daughter was almost 3. We had already told her that she was going to be a big sister and she was as excited as she could be. Then the miscarriage happened and, in the midst of our grief, we were struggling with how to help her get through it. We asked a friend of ours who is a professional counselor and he suggested taking some time to have her write (or at her age, dictate) a letter/message to the baby and then let her pick a balloon that she thought the baby would have liked and send the message off into the sky (sending it to the baby). It provided a concrete way for her to communicate her feelings and get some closure.

I know that a miscarriage is way different than what you've gone through, but maybe something like this could help her (and you). Just a thought. Again, my prayers are with you.

[Phobia]

Wow, Kepp. That's an amazing suggestion. It's easy to see how that would provide some closure in the mind of a 4 year old child. Thanks for sharing that with Mike. I hope he and his wife elect to give it a shot.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

I'm am SO SORRY to hear this and I can't believe I didn't see it sooner. My family's thoughts & prayers are with your family.

If I may suggest something to try with your daughter that may help her in grieving. My wife had a miscarriage about a year-and-a-half ago when my daughter was almost 3. We had already told her that she was going to be a big sister and she was as excited as she could be. Then the miscarriage happened and, in the midst of our grief, we were struggling with how to help her get through it. We asked a friend of ours who is a professional counselor and he suggested taking some time to have her write (or at her age, dictate) a letter/message to the baby and then let her pick a balloon that she thought the baby would have liked and send the message off into the sky (sending it to the baby). It provided a concrete way for her to communicate her feelings and get some closure.

I know that a miscarriage is way different than what you've gone through, but maybe something like this could help her (and you). Just a thought. Again, my prayers are with you.


Thank you for you thought and suggestion, we actually did something similar after a friend from church gave us an idea.

I wish I would have talked to you after my wife's miscarriage before she was pregnant with Zachary. She had an ectopic pregnancy and almost died from that. I thought that was difficult to get through. But that would have been a great way to help my daughter at that time. It was hard for her to understand what happened to her Mommy and why she wasn't going to be a big sister after all.

My wife's previous miscarriage makes losing Zachary that much more difficult. We were not sure we could have another child after her surgery to remove one of her tubes and a previous condition she had.

I often wonder and think if God is punishing us for something; to go through the miscarriage and almost losing my wife, and now the loss of my son. It is more than any person should have to deal with but it really hurts me that my daughter has to experience it.

[Manila-Chief]

Mike,

My heart goes out to you and your family. That is a very tough situation to live through. I wish I could press the replay button on the DVR/VCR and rerecord your life situation and change the results of that day, but that is not possible. Family, friends, and prayers help but it still hurts.

Last Wednesday we lost our daughter-in-law (33 years old) to fast spreading liver cancer. So, know a little of what you are going through. You'll never completely get over it, but in time life will return to "normal.

Let me assure you that God is not punishing you. That is not how He operates. God did not bring evil into the world. He didn't cause this. Yes, He could have prevented it, but for some reason He chose not to prevent it. I can't explain why things like this happen. I can only assure you that "His grace is sufficent" for you and he will help you and your wife through this ordeal.

God will minister to you through quiet moments, as you read His word (the Bible ... my wife likes to read the Psalms and pray them back to God when we get into these situations), as you worship, and through family/friends.

The Bible teaches us that Zachary is in heaven with God. Some churches allow their members to believe that children become angels, but, that is false information. Angels are created beings not "persons." BTW most of the time when angels appear in the Bible they are male beings. So, Zack is a person in heaven.

Zack is now having a great life. No more pain, no more tears, no more trouble... it is you and the family who are left that is hurting. Take your hurts to the Lord and allow Him to meet your needs.

[papasmurf]

Mike I am very sorry for your loss. My son, Isaac was hit by a car and killed 9 years ago. I wasn't sure what to say to you. The hurt never goes away. The memory lingers. It does get easier ( or least you think it does). You never know when something will spur a memory. I can tell you that when that happens to me now it brings a smile to my face for all the memories are happy ones. Time does relieve the the pain and anger. I do know when I see an eleven year old boy I picture Isaac. God Bless

[ChiefsFan4Life]

No disrespect to Mike, but do we really need prayer threads stuck for weeks upon weeks? I thought 24 hours was sufficient in the past and I never really had any complaints about it.

It's obvious that Mike is taking this extremely tough and I am sure in some way that this is a way for him to grieve (writing his feelings out on this forum) and what comes to your sick mind is whether or not this should still be stickied? This is one of the weakest, most immature things I have ever witnessed from anyone in my entire life. You should be absolutely ashamed and disgusted with yourself.

.................

Mike - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Reading all of this is like reading a nightmare and it really hurts and to think you are actually going through all of this shows your strength. Like others have said, please do not forget about your daughter and your wife who both need you. Zachary would want you to make sure they are ok too.

[Phobia]

I'm sorry you feel that way, CF4L. I don't think it was entirely immature. Perhaps it was poor judgement for me to post the request in an open forum but that's always been my style.

Mike has all the sympathy and support I can offer. In no way was my comment meant in disrespect to him or his family. As you can see, this thread has had life long after it was unstickied and I encourage Mike to continue venting on it because I think it's healthy for him to do so. I also encourage everybody to continue to offer their support to him.

Because I'd rather not sully this thread with this discussion I welcome further comments about this issue privately or in a fresh thread created for this topic.

[wazu]

Today I listened to a story from a co-worker whose child's teacher experienced a tragedy. She had been holding her six month old son at the top of the stairs in her house, and turned to grab a breast pump that was behind her, and as she turned the six month old pushed away, and she dropped him. He tumbled down the stairs, hit his head, and ultimately died.

Her whole life demolished. She will have to live with that split-second lapse in concentration mistake forever. It's not fair, but fair has nothing to do with it. She did her best, and that's all she can do.

You did all you could, but sometimes God has a different plan for us. God bless. You, your son, and your family are in my prayers.

[Phobia]

I read about that in today's newspaper, Adam. Absolutely horrible.

[DaneMcCloud]

I often wonder and think if God is punishing us for something; to go through the miscarriage and almost losing my wife, and now the loss of my son. It is more than any person should have to deal with but it really hurts me that my daughter has to experience it.

Mike,

I sincerely mourn the loss of your child. I'm sure that's a tragedy that you will never forget in your (hopefully) long, long life on this planet.

God is not punishing you. Miscarriages happen all the time and probably quite a bit more frequently than you're aware of or even what's reported. My grandmother had two miscarriages before giving birth to my mother and her brother. My wife and I have several friends who've had miscarriages recently, only to go on to have full-term pregnancies and healthy babies shortly thereafter. Sometimes, pregnancies just aren't right. The mother's not right, her body chemistry, etc. No one, including God, is punishing you.

Life is full of peaks and valleys, sideways and backward steps, ups and downs and challenges that we could never imagine as children.

It's HOW we deal with these challenges that define us. Don't let this loss pull you into an abyss in which you or your family can't recover.

Good luck to you.

[ClevelandBronco]

Baby Zachary, please pray for us.

We're lost.

Though we search for answers, we're left with too many questions.

As strange as it may sound, we need you to help us now.

Until your dad, your mom and your sister can be with you again, please pray for them, Zachary.

Know that you were loved as deeply here as you have always been loved by your Heavenly Father.

Please pray for us all, Zachary.

[Pierce]

Prayers your way, man. Your child thought you were the greatest, and still does. He's looking down upon you and your family with a great big grin :)

[MadMax]

God bless my friend, I can only offer prayers and love. I can't even imagine the pain. He is an angel and God called him home.

[Cntrygal]

My sympathies, thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

[Chief Henry]

Prayers have been said. Gods Blessings to you
and your family.

[King_Chief_Fan]

My son who would be 6 mos. old on the 4th passed away today while he was sleeping. He was perfectly healthy and this is crushing me. I don't know what to do and would trade places with him in an instant. Please keep my family in your prayers.


Zachary David
1/4/07
7/2/07

Rest in Peace my little man; Daddy loves you.
CMT-
There aren't any words that can express my sympathy to you and your family. My prayers for all of you have been sent.
Keep the faith.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

My beautiful son would be 11 mos. old today......

Not sure how we are going to get through the holidays, especially with Zachary's first birthday coming up on Jan. 4. These last few months have been horrendous, keep hoping things will start to feel better but they don't.

Some days little things help, some days nothing helps.......

[boogblaster]

Chin-up he'd want you to be strong ... you'll never forget him but time will help ......

[Bugeater]

I wish there was something I could say to make your pain go away. But alas...I am powerless.

All I can say is my heart breaks for you.

[Phobia]

How are the plans for the playground progressing?

[Ari ümlaüt]

Im so sorry Mike. Wow. I feel complete sorrow for you bro. Stay strong. You have an amazing angel with you forever now. Words can't express...

oh man.

[RJ]

How are the plans for the playground progressing?


Yeah, that sounded like a great idea. Any progress yet?

[Rasputin]

I can't say I understand what you are going through, but I pray that you will find healing in your heart and that your family will overcome this loss. God bless and keep the faith, Jesus does love you.

It's not fair that people have to go through such heart ache it's just not. Just keep strong for your family and be strong for yourself.

[Dallas Chief]

Prayers your way. May God bless you during this Holiday Season.

[Chiefs_Mike_Topeka]

How are the plans for the playground progressing?


Slowly; as I mentioned before our church was destroyed by arson and the plans for rebuilding the church have been slow in coming as well. That being said there has been many generous and wonderful donations to "Zachary's Playground" and will allow the church to construct a wonderful memorial, not only to Zachary but to other children from the church that have passed.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

[Msmith]

I don't know this little story (http://www.bartleby.com/17/3/16.html) can give you any spark.

May God grant you grace and strength.

[NewChief]

Definitely sending prayers your way. It's unimaginable what you've been through and what you continue to go through.

[Dartgod]

I don't know how I missed this the first time around, but I would like to pass on my condolences on the loss of your son.

May God give you the strength to cope with your loss.

[Mr. Plow]

CMT, I've said it once, but want to say it again....if there is ANYTHING I can do, don't hesitate to ask.

I've lost an older brother before his time. I can't imagine what you are going through. Just know that I am here for you if you need anything.