that scares the crap outta me. I know how my parents were and what I hope to take away from my experience with them is how not to be with my kids.

In our efforts to produce one, we have had the normal conversations... how would you handle this, what would you do if that and I find that I am having to force myself to not default to the way I was brought up.

This will be a challenge... but one I will get past.

The other thing bothering me is the fact that such things I don't like about who I'm starting to pattern myself after is that I'm fighting off decades of inherited behavior. Dad acts the way he does because his dad did. I'd imagine granddad acted the way he did because of how his dad acted. Pedigrees are hard to shake.

And my hat's off to Bane for how he treats his kids better than his parents treated him. It's far too easy for people to do the same thing their parents did just out of spite or the reasoning that if it happened to them, it happens to their kids too.

We have too health problems to go into but I act more and more like my mom and her side of family...