Been 10 days since no drink. Was hitting 10 Pale Ales a nite, but needed to quit to save some bucks. Boy, was I ever wanting to hit the bottle last nite. Still smoke, and probably won't quit again. Quit for a year, 15 years ago. Oh, well.

Good luck to those who have addictions.

Alcohol took my brother's life at 31 - actually it got its hooks in him at 18, and he survived 13 more years until he was beaten to death living on the streets. Do anything possible to get help, and I applaud you for realizing you need to do so. Prayers, and best of luck to you!

This !


And I sit back and wonder how in the hell I can be so addicted to such a crappy team.

I guess my addiction really developed back in the DT,Schottenheimer days.

It will pay off when they start winning again. It's much better than being a bandwagoner. :)

I'm surprised nobody has come up with porn. I still look at porn but its no longer used as an excuse to avoid things, just to supplement what is already there.

Addiction is the process of letting something take over your life to the exclusion of all else. My problem lies in the other area, laziness to do what is needed to move forward. I let excuses happen for not exercising or overeating, or not working to make my writing better so that I would have the confidence to do something with it. Malaise can be just as bad as addiction.

Like some of these other guys said: 1) you have to make a decision (which it seems you have, or at least are trying to), and 2) you need to put some distance between you and the issue.

What I've found in my life, though, is to really achieve separation it also took accountability and replacement.

I know with me, I'm really good at hiding things and no one, not even my best friends and roommates, knew of some of the crap that was going on. That is until I finally had enough and talked to a couple of them that I knew really had my best interests at heart.

These aren't the type of guys who will pat me on the back and tell me everything will be okay. They're the type who will ask tough questions and kick my tail if I need it kicked. Part of it, though, is that I have to be absolutely honest with them.

And then, like anything, if you're trying to kick it but are just sitting around playing on the computer/watching tv/goofing off/something else without much substance when you're most prone to be tempted, then it's easier to slip back in. But if you replace that activity with something else that brings more to life, it makes it harder for you to "make time" to slip away.

Max

Don't sell your self short. At 30 I was and dual cocaine and heroin addict, smoking 2 packs a day and drinking like a fiend. All the time I was functional albeit seriously screwed up. I had an extremely bad temper and it was after a third arrest that someone confronted me about everything. I was basically given the choice of cleaning up my act or something very unpleasant. I started by cutting the drugs first. I went cold turkey and walked away from everyone I knew that used. After I accomplished that I cut down My drinking to where it was not an issue. I then quit smoking cold turkey. Unfortunately I substituted food every thing else and gained 200 pounds.I have now started the weight loss part and have lost 80 pounds.

The thing with most people I know is that they are so busy looking ahead at what obstacles are in the way. That they forget about the ones they have overcome.

I am no Sister Mary Sunshine. It was hard as hell and most ex user's I meet love to feel sorry for themselves. I would not consider myself fully recovered until I lose the weight.

Best advice I can give anyone is don't feel sorry for yourself and either get busy living or get busy dying.

Ang

I still can't believe its been four years. Time flys .

I remember when you made it one year. That was cool.

IMO an addict is NEVER fully cured, one slip and we could be right back where we were

I consider recovery different from cured.
Recovered just means to me that I am back to center.

Ang

This...

Well good luck to you. I have quit smoking several times currently in relapse, internet porn, , etc. My vices change as my bi-polar disorder cycles, and currently I am unemployed and cannot afford treatment or meds. My point is do not be ashamed of your addictions, shine a bright ass light on it, call it out by name. I am a Christian, but I struggle with that as well when the depression hits. But don't quit. Even the Bible tells us to acknowledge these things to one another in order to defeat them. I will pray for strength for you and wish you the best. And last but not least, whatever the addiction, you are not alone.

I've been really additcted to pussy for quite sometime now.

Have you seen this website? It is totally free and there is a LOT of great information and homework for a person to delve into. This is a link to a quick slide show about it. After completing the self assignments it really gives a person a unique perspective about oneself. We can all get better! Plus, there are online meetings which are unique.

Good journey to you.:thumb:

http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc..._sol/img0.html

It's pharmaceutical pain killers, for me. Right now, it's dilaudid. About 40 mg a day.

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