I had to save my daughters life two weeks ago but I didn't talk about it here.


She is doing fine now but the amount of Tylenol in her system would have been fatal if I had not recognize she wasn't right and called the paramedics. I thought she was having nightmares but I knew something else was going on. If I let her sleep I don't want to think about it.


I will say she got treatment and is on outpatient now and is doing fine and is turning things around has a new spirit about her and that is wonderful so sometimes even in the worst of a persons life miracles do and can happen. I do believe in miracles and something bigger than me to protect my family because I am not strong enough myself.

I loved to drink still would if I knew how to handle it but I can't control it, it controlled me my every move and thought and obsessions revolved around alcohol.

I just don't drink today and that's the best I can do.

Nicotine is just as bad the others. I quit chewing tobacco coming up on 4 years ago after 35 years of dipping. I had an instance in the past month where I told "momma" I'm glad there isn't any around. I just had to make up my mind I wasn't gonna do it anymore.

Ice cream is a hell of a drug to convert to after smoking. I went binge eating by the buckets for 6 months and half price malts and shakes from Sonic after 8pm. An addiction is an addiction.

I'm pretty lucky that none of the good time shit I've done in the past has every put it's hooks in me. Except for booze. I still have to get nice and drunk every couple of weeks at a minimum to keep my sanity.

I know it's nothing like a day to day problem, but I still don't think I could just quit drinking booze if I really wanted to. That would ****ing suck.

Yeah I realized alcohol is a bit of a problem for me. I don't consume a ton of it, but I don't want to drink it, and I still do. If Kansas would just legalize pot already, I would have a better alternative.

I went through a stint of 11 months of this - there was a time I bought $800 worth in one trip - also a day I took 21 10mg's oxys. It took my supplier to run out to FINALLY (and he always had them and I always had the $$) - reflect...

I went through the withdrawals because I didn't have a choice, so I used it to my advantage and told myself never again - and I never did take them again. Even after availability was back, I blocked my suppliers ability to reach me and just ****ing quit. A few of you knew of this - but I didn't tell many CP'ers.

Nice job, man. ****ing awesome. Congratulations! Inspiring.

I have a party animal side of me and he wants to come out to play almost always - but once i quit something I'm done - I still don't drink to this day.

I'm going through some things myself at the moment. Just lost a friend 2 months ago to an Oxy Od. Sorry about your friend Inmem

thanks adam.

sorry buddy.

there were days i felt it in my head and was waiting for the lights to go out - thank God I pulled through.

I have a MAJOR addictive personality. I feel like I've been battling it my whole life. I love pushing the envelope and getting as ducked up as possible. The drug doesn't matter, only the boss does. That said, I've managed to keep it to weed and alcohol for a long time. There was a time when I could say no to no drugs. But somehow I've managed to keep it to a minimum and only weed and alcohol. My problem is when I start doing anything no matter what it is (weed, extasy, porn...) I have to go to the extreme. Either go big or go home has been one of my mottos my whole life . Yet somehow I have been able to keep it in
Check. Maybe I'm just getting old, or don't have the connections I used to. Either way I'm slightly drunk right now, and these are the 2 songs that seem to be my theme songs since I hit 40.
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And

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Thanks Red, glad you pulled through. The world needs Simply Red :clap: