Originally Posted by angelo (Post 5837161)

I consider recovery different from cured.
Recovered just means to me that I am back to center.

Ang

Originally Posted by FAX (Post 5837195)

It's pharmaceutical pain killers, for me. Right now, it's dilaudid. About 40 mg a day.

FAX

Originally Posted by JASONSAUTO (Post 5837201)

i used to love xanax, like 10 a day. now just take them when i drink. pop a xanax drink all night long

Originally Posted by FAX (Post 5837218)

ROFL

About the only positive I can conjure up about it is that it makes alcohol more effective.

That benefit, of course, is offset somewhat by the fact that I now find myself playing "Brick Breaker" on my Blackberry for hours at a time.

FAX

Originally Posted by JASONSAUTO (Post 5837221)

not really more effective, i can just drink MUCH more

Originally Posted by FAX (Post 5837235)

To each his own, I suppose.

In my experience, mixing dilaudid and tequila is equivalent to removing your brain and placing it in a jar overnight. I have learned that you don't want to operate machinery any heavier than a blender.

FAX

Originally Posted by angelo (Post 5837118)

Max

Don't sell your self short. At 30 I was and dual cocaine and heroin addict, smoking 2 packs a day and drinking like a fiend. All the time I was functional albeit seriously screwed up. I had an extremely bad temper and it was after a third arrest that someone confronted me about everything. I was basically given the choice of cleaning up my act or something very unpleasant. I started by cutting the drugs first. I went cold turkey and walked away from everyone I knew that used. After I accomplished that I cut down My drinking to where it was not an issue. I then quit smoking cold turkey. Unfortunately I substituted food every thing else and gained 200 pounds.I have now started the weight loss part and have lost 80 pounds.

The thing with most people I know is that they are so busy looking ahead at what obstacles are in the way. That they forget about the ones they have overcome.

I am no Sister Mary Sunshine. It was hard as hell and most ex user's I meet love to feel sorry for themselves. I would not consider myself fully recovered until I lose the weight.

Best advice I can give anyone is don't feel sorry for yourself and either get busy living or get busy dying.

Ang

Originally Posted by Hog Farmer (Post 5837544)

I'm a chronic masturbater.

But since I get paid for it I think I can live with it.

Originally Posted by Mr. Wizard (Post 5837190)

Have you seen this website? It is totally free and there is a LOT of great information and homework for a person to delve into. This is a link to a quick slide show about it. After completing the self assignments it really gives a person a unique perspective about oneself. We can all get better! Plus, there are online meetings which are unique.

Good journey to you.:thumb:

http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc..._sol/img0.html

Originally Posted by FAX (Post 5837195)

It's pharmaceutical pain killers, for me. Right now, it's dilaudid. About 40 mg a day.

FAX

Originally Posted by stumppy (Post 5837608)

Opiates are a hard one to kick. I feel for ya when the time comes. Been there and done that.........more than once. (insert shuddering smilie)

Originally Posted by FAX (Post 5837622)

Yeah ... I've taken brief breaks just to see how bad it is and to get a feel for what it will be like ... Oh, my God. It isn't pretty. Shakes, sweats, sensations of panic, etc.

I'm not looking forward to it, I can tell you that much, Mr. stumppy. I've done some research on methods and means to make it easier and, apparently, there isn't a lot you can do other than gut it out. Lots of showers, chocolate, exercise, etc. It's going to suck the great weenie from hell, to be sure.

FAX

Originally Posted by stumppy (Post 5837626)

I'm not sure which is worse, the mental or physical side of it. All I do know is I'd rather have someone beat the crap out of me daily than deal with withdraws.