Actually Nashville. Everyone I knew had something for me. I had to leave to escape it. It's a lot harder to quit anything when all of your friends are knee deep in it.

Yep.

A friend of mine, has all sorts of issues been to rehab still does it, he will say he either likes it or is easily addicted then he said to me that I don't understand. When I was in high school and a little after I did alot of dumb shit but I never got addicted to anything, I never had to have it I could do something stop never do it again.

He explained to me that "people like him and people in rehab hate people like me because I make something so difficult look so easy" I felt that was a copout response but I'm not in those shoes so I can't say 100%.

Clarify?

Which part?

Addiction runs in my family, and I can say without a doubt, from my experiences with drugs, that people don't fail to stop doing drugs, because they can't, but because deep down inside, they don't REALLY want to. It's really sad. They will lie, and do anything possible to convince you that they want to stop, but they don't, and unfortunately, the doctors give them the ultimate cop out by telling them they have a disease, and then everytime they "fail", they can just blame it on this "disease". Truth is, they like doing it, and don't care what the consequences are, but they want everyone to think that they just want to stop sooooo bad.

Sadly the only other advice I can give you is AA, I have been to a few events with some family members and if you find the right meetings there are actually some pretty cool people in there.

Luckily I'm one of those people who learns from others mistakes, generally, so I never fell into any of that.

noted.

I went from a guy who did a bunch of reeruned shit, of course I never did it by myself either so I was never that far into it, to what I am now where I don't even drink.

yeah although my mania is probably more depression related. Are you nervous pacing and feel like impending doom is upon you? I get horrible spells hungover or not where I feel like what almost happened really happened case in example. I wasn't drinking this night but I moved a friend in and I was just dropping shit all over the place and I almost set a microwave down on his newborn that was sleeping on the floor. I was like oh shit that was close. Later on drinking and all that I woke up in the middle of the night and I litterally felt like I dropped a microwave on the kid. I still let alittle guilt seep in when I am hungover but I try to stay positive. The worst is driving. I don't drink and drive but for some reason even like the next day I drank yesterday but going to work today I just feel bad for even driving. The shame, guilt, and just disaster feeling is worse than anything else. When you have depression bad enough you can understand why people blow thier brains out.

Yeah, I've been addicted to things. My mother is an addict. So I talk from experience. I've been to rehab, and the things those people tell you, are exactly what creates the lifelong addict.

#1 they tell you once an addict always an addict. (BS)

#2 they tell you it's a disease. (BS)

They give you all these excuses to not take responsibility for the fact that your just a junky who wants to do drugs all the time. I never bought into all that crap, and new I was just a dirtbag, and I think that's the reason that I was able to leave it all behind.

Just a comment

There is a pretty strongly established causal connection between addiction along family lines, even if the children did not grow up with the parent (or parents) who are addicts.

I never went to any rehab I just decided I wasn't really having any fun that way and I didn't need to do that anymore.

It's funny to tell that to people who know me now, they'd never realize it, one time I was telling this story about how when I was 17 me and this girl I dated would do coke and stay up for 3 days at a time, and they just look at me stunned.

That's pretty much what I mean when I say I can't relate to those shoes I don't have those genes and I would have considered myself a casual user nothing more.