Stay strong Chiefs brother.

Still kicking.

I went back to the doc Thursday and she upped my meds again.

Same shit different day. Pain is tolerable but running our of energy is annoying. Going to try and sit on my ass all day today.

I'm an asshole and hypocrite.

I prayed for nzoner and Clark saying not to give up....and I didn't listen to my own "advice".

I'll ask over and over if you'll keep them in your thoughts

I had a lot of shit typed but it didn't come out the way I wanted

One day at a time, my friend.
Take a breath and just move on.
Try and find that inner ****in peace.
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Is this a no on the embedding?

Your call.

I was just having a rough morning and that song kind of hit home.

I wasn't sure if it would lift spirits or it was just me venting.

Yes please.

Me and Pappy talked the other night and we both have the side effects.

I'll try to explain. I'll speak on my behalf alone.

My body ain't processing food very well but what does get through "releases toxins" and it screws up the way I think.

So if I do/say something stupid....well I'm an idiot.

Yesterday sucked and my beautiful wife had to deal with me...and had some sharp pains this morning.

Anyway....that song hit very much home.
I'm trying to explain to my kids what's happening, love my wife, and keep a comforting shoulder for Pa.

When I do think clearly....I feel like an ass.

I keep saying "fight" to everyone else.

I need to do the same.

Thanks

I'm aweome.....

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Good talking to you hw
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Thank you...

Pleasure was all mine

also known as:

carcinogen

Was that necessary?

I thought about your post more than I should have.

I learned the difference between need and want when I was in Jr high.

I need food and water....nothing else.

I think I've been pretty open that I'm no ****ing angel. I've lived hard and I admit that.

After reading your post I stepped outside and had a smoke. Set on my steps and said a prayer for you. You took the time out of your day to give me the definition on "carcinogen".

Good on you if that made you feel better but I truly wish you the best.

I'll reiterate....I've done stupid shit most of my life and while it's killing me....I wouldn't change a damn thing.

I've got here because of my stubborn personality and my willingness to live hard.

I'm not sure why you thought posting that was a good idea but you did and I'm ok with that.

Want....another smoke.
Need....my wife/kids and dinner.
Necessary...not you.

Nope.....

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My wife got the family pics back

Excellent
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ROFL asshole

We're all rooting for you brother!

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He is one dashing ****er but I think he taken

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This place never disappoints ;)

Nice pic man. Hope things are improving.

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Thank you, we're still hanging on :thumb:

Updated OP.


Still looking at the right side of the dirt. LMAO

Only thing that's changed (other than the expected) is I have a babysitter now :spock:

Nothing like a good shot to your ego

Looks like everyone was on their period.

Haven't heard from you in awhile!

And why is this rompered ???

I asked...took a turn.

Back again somewhat

Had/having something strange this morning. Wanted to share but didn't want to start a new thread.

My wife is a Christmas junkie...and I mean full on Christmas nutjob. Her birthday is in November so a few years ago I started putting up the tree on her bday and gave her full reign of the TV to watch Christmas movies (except for Chiefs games of course). That's a shitload of Christmas movies. Today is her last day of watching movies. We obviously have a hard time finding new ones. I clicked on the first one we haven't seen.

A month ago my brother and his wife wanted to give us a cruise so I could at least say I've seen another country. We've talked about it but won't decide until after we ask my doctor at my next appointment.

We usually spend Christmas Eve with my Ma and Pa. We lost her earlier this year and my Pa wasn't up to it so we had everyone come to our house. The kids wore torn since everything was different without "Grammy". I bought stocking stuffers this year and put a Finding Nemo in my Pa's stocking and wondered if he would catch what I meant. I could tell he figured it out when I saw him wipe away a tear.

So we started the movie and the first scene was a woman crying in bed and was mad at the "situation". Husband talks her into getting out of bed for Christmas morning. Plot twist..the husband is the one that has cancer and has 12 months to live. He booked a cruise 18 months out. He goes to church on his own and brings home a stranger (an angel).

Family is coming over for Christmas dinner and when mom gets there she is called "Grammy" by the kids. The family is upset because this is their first Christmas without a grandparent.

Literally half the names in this damn movie is the names of my family who were here last night.

So far (I'm still watching) this movie has described us to a T.
Yes it's an overly religious movie and I'm sure it's coincidence but damn...there have been a ton of them. As I was typing they suggested palliative care and for him to stay comfortable...anybody want to guess what my wife does for a living?

This is kind of creepy


TLDR..HayWire is watching his life story on TV and tearing up like a bitch.

Merry Christmas.

I guess an update is in order?

I am blessed. I keep doing stupid post about my "gay days".

Trying to decide if the cruise is gonna happen.....doc came back and said might want to move it up.

Going to stick some stuff in my belly to drain fluids. Then they're going to put some ports in to make it easier. I was doing the math last night and I will have to be ready to go at 1 am to make it to Floriduh.


Health wise, I will not back down. I've said it over and over. Watch this.


Side note...if anyone get's tired of my schtick let me know.....so I can tell you to **** the hell off....

I am going to do a "gay day" with a VERY strong CP theme....just need a little help from my friends.

Keep fighting Haywire. I keep pulling (& praying) for you and your family.

Nobody is tired of your schtick, as you put it - keep making the most of every day bud.

Thank you you guys....

I like your schtick and you're way more alpha than Clay.

Anxiously waiting your gay day…..

/no homo


///okay, a little bit homo

Much love bud. Keep living your best life.

Thanks everyone

How you doin Haywire?

I'm awesome. Just got back from the funeral home.

Kind of surreal to pick out your own casket

I can't imagine. I frequently check this thread for updates. You've got support from Iowa, my brother. Are you able to go to the game tomorrow?

Thanks.

Don't think I can make it. I'll scream in spirit if that counts

It definitely counts. I promise to cheer extra loud for you.

The first false start credit goes to HayWire and IA_Chiefs_fan

**** yeah it does! Let's do this!!

Get loud bitches

Can't imagine what kind of an adventure that might be. How are you feeling of late?

Meh, not to bad....my body is disappointed

The countdown started. Had an appointment this morning and the doc said less than a year

The Chiefs better win this ****er

They will, brother. They will.

Sorry to hear about the "countdown" man, but glad the Chiefs are making this year a good one. Keep being you.

I believe we will. Keep your spirit up brother.

Tattoo time?

[QUOTE=DaFace;16779418]Sorry to hear about the "countdown" man, but glad the Chiefs are making this year a good one. Keep being you.[/QUOTE.

Went and paid for our plots today.... that sucked

Already done that, but can’t get the wife to help with picking out a casket and headstone. Just need to get it out of the way.
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Casket is done, preacher is picked, plots are paid for.

The wife is picking out our headstone tomorrow.


Good times

Shit has to be done, brother.
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Unfortunately I know, still kind of a ****ed up feeling.

Leaving Florida next Monday.. surely I can find something to get into.

Kick Mickey Mouse in the nuts.
Always thought he was ****in goofy.
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I'm in Florida now... hope you like humidity!

Doing the cruise thing?

Tampa Bay?

Yeah, a bit all over travel-wise, but staying in the TB area. My dad retired to The Villages, so have been up there a bit. Just got back from a weekend in Marco Island.

Damn, I’d love to have a drink with ya!! I live in Clearwater!

What happened to that Ravens fan that lived in the villages that posted a bit on cp.

I'll let you know if I make it over that way! I've been to Badfins a couple times, and happened to go to Gerstle's on a night they were testing a BYOBourbon tasting.. I've been waiting to see if they were going to do another one of those.

Headed to Siesta Key next weekend, and then I think the Villages again after that.

Sounds good bro. Hell I’ll gladly drive to Tampa for a drink with a cool fellow Chiefs fan. Lmk if you have time while you’re here.

Where at? Going to Miami in a few weeks.

Love ya brother have a kick ass trip

Thanks man. We're leaving in a week. Should be a hoot since I don't move much anymore

Why not? You should do whatever you want. Cocaine? Meth? Heroin? I say go for it.

This is a family values forum. He should stick with the CP staples of Hookers and Blow.

Had a shit ass yesterday and had a nurse here til 3. Decided to bring my hospital bed today. At least they're putting the ****er in my living room. If anyone comes they can deal with it

:harumph:It’s your house and where you want to be.
Piss on what anyone else thinks.
Beats the hell out of a hospital or a nursing home imo.

Take some deep breaths and relax my dear brother, and don’t sweat over the small things. It’s just a moved bed.

Call me!
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