Sent my chick flowers, all her friends are jealous she told me. I didn't think I would see her for a couple weeks because of my busy schedule right now, but my plans for last night were delayed until tonight so we went out and had a really nice dinner and spent the night together.

Man, I'm really happy.

Remember all those fun seasons with Norval running your team? Because I do.

Blah Blah Blah Scott Pioli, Herm Edwards, Todd Haley, King Carl

I ****ing agree.

And I've done it every single ****ing time in my life except for this last time where I did a 90%. I said, "no more texts." She obliged. I hid her from facebook (I usually defriend), I hid her from chat, I hid her statuses, I hid her friends that were my mutual friends. I was 100% over this girl, a girl I really liked...a girl I never fought with. We were at stressful times in our lives and it just wasn't working. Clean break.

She texted sometime a few weeks ago...she usually checks in like once a month. Whatever. I pass it off. Well we met up a few weekends ago and spent the whole night/next day together...

and of course I ****ing **** myself by being the moron that I am

and now last night was just a ****ing mess

...

so dumb

should have left it alone

I will never, ever do this again. Once I break up with/get broken up with...done. No friends. No animosity. No texts. No drunk dials. Just move on.

I hate being an idiot.

That sucks.

I told my girlfriend last night that I don't do on-again/off-again relationships because it seems like most of her friends have done that with their men. I just wanted to make that clear so she doesn't try to play any games, not that I think she would.

I had a really, really, really tough breakup when I was 19...and couldn't sleep, eat...the only time in my life I was truly depressed. 3 years. I was always very reserved, kept to myself...never showed any feelings to family. Couldn't hide it. I'd wake my mom up and she finally got fed up and said, "Rick...you can't make someone love you."

Stuck with me. I acted so ridiculous then I told myself right then and there...any future breakups are just breakups. Just be done. So any time in my last 9 years on this planet when I'm done with a girl I just try and delete the memories. I don't hold on. Just move on.

This last girl is just pissing me off now. We started dating and her last boyfriend had terminal cancer...and he'd send her terrible texts about how he was just going to kill himself because she wouldn't be with him etc etc etc

I felt bad. What could I say? Dude was/is dying. It literally destroyed our relationship. We ended, I was mature...and gave her A TON of space.

She solved that riddle/got over having that dude guilt trip her...and so I tricked myself into thinking somehow we were going to work.

and last night she was such a complete bitch to me I couldn't believe it

Done.

Never again.

I'm just so mad at myself because I've learned from these mistakes before. Whatever. Time heels all wounds.

my thought on that topic:

if you broke up for a reason...for fighting/anything...

and get back together?

Sure. For a minute it may be all good and great. But the problems before are ALWAYS going to resurface.

After my first break up I was so shook up that I guaranteed the next girl I dated I was going to marry. I'm so easy to get along with. I don't fight with girls...I'm a pushover.

I just choose the wrong god damn girls. I'm tired of it.

****in A man. Feels shitty, but you already have experienced getting over it and know it's possible. When I feel like shit, I hold onto that thought that I know I will get over it eventually and it seems to help.

I don't even feel like shit. I've gotten over this girl. She was the easiest one yet. Every one gets easier with age.

I just feel like an asshole for telling her how I feel about her, her getting to take all of those nice things in...and then her being a total ****ing bitch about it.

It's ridiculous.

I know I'm an asshole on here but that girl doesn't deserve to hear those TRUE things I felt about her if she's going to act like that.

Whatever.

She'll regret it. I'm done with it.

Learning experience.

and yeah, that's basically what I tell myself/friends when shit happens

I say...

"you know what, in 5 years...will it really matter?"

these are all defense mechanisms I learned after my terrible 19 year old breakup

two relationship tips I received from mom/best friend (I'll repeat)

1. Time heels all wounds.
2. You can't force someone to love you.

some day I'll stumble into something that actually works

OkCupid sucks

They all suck.

Dear lord Hootie, pull it together. Your emotional diarrhea is hard to read.

I'll suck your dick you ****ing bundle of sticks.

Yeah Hootie actin' like a lil bitch right now.