Originally Posted by ThaVirus (Post 16603053)

A mature person wouldn't have found themselves in this situation to begin with.

You're 40 years old still ****ing with hardcore drugs and bragging about sticking your dick in crazy whores you named Fun Bags and Throat GOAT, laughing about how one of them totaled your neighbors cars in the trailer park.

You've got a daughter, dude. You need to do better.

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16601584)

I had a lot of toxicity of my own I had to deal with, and once I started processing all the childhood shit, it wasn't the hugest step to get out of the whole "look at what those ****ed up females did to me!?" victimstance. Like, what did I EXPECT out of them? I deluded myself into thinking she was a whore with a heart of gold but in reality she had your regular old basic cold ass whore's heart.

It was MY fault. I put myself in that position.

Gold Star wanted to marry me, but I wouldn't commit, my unprocessed trauma ruined that. I didn't deal with it, wouldn't process it.

My grandma who raised me died. I wouldn't process it.

Fun Bags never wanted to, like, marry me...but she genuinely liked me and wanted me to grow and there were issues....and I wouldn't even talk to her about them.

So when it ended, and I was hurt, it was foreign because I was used to feeling NOTHING. This was painful, and I had been conditioned since childhood to ignore pain.

So I ignored it and ran into the Superfreak buzzsaw aka Crazy Town.

I had no business being in a relationship with ANYONE, but especially not her. But I was just running from pain.

Now I know not to run from pain. Just sit in it. Allow it to happen. It hurt because I cared. And it's okay to care. It's GOOD to care about someone that much. Not a weakness.

So, Funbags will probably hurt me again. She hurts me now, because we are keeping our distance, and it totally hurts. But I know it's necessary, because I'm still healing. And she's probably going to hurt me in the future. Or someone else will, eventually. I accept that. I'm so sensitive, everything hurts me anyway. Might as well be her. Pain is inevitable; it's suffering that is the choice. I no longer choose to suffer.

But I am 100% accountable for the action I made that put me in that position, and I have completely changed my life over the past year :

Got divorced
Moved back to Columbia
Quit drinking
Quit eating processed foods/gluten
Hot yoga almost every day
In an intensive therapy program

And I go to school/work and have an internship and a band.

My relationships with everyone are better than ever.

People can honestly see how much better I am and how much happier I am.

My boss had me watch her 10 month old daughter last week.

When my best friend got married in OP, this GIANT ass house with all the kids from the wedding party... I stayed with the kids and watched the house when they went to the hotel after the reception. My friend let me use his brand new Dodge Ram pickup to go move a bed frame. Just left the keys in the cup holder.
These things probably don't happen a year ago.

I've grown so much from everythimg that it's downright visible, people can SEE it. And they're responding.

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16603058)

Maybe you missed this post? :shrug:

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16602939)

I always do.

Unlike you...who just keeps it real lame and real stupid.

Originally Posted by Superturtle (Post 16603072)

Yeah, reading through the thread and I'm a bit baffled why you thought posting a story about your drunken ex smashing both your neighbors cars in a fit of drunken rage would correlate to back pats and 'attaboys' about how much better you're doing or, well, pretty much anything except the mocking you got.

Originally Posted by Razaele (Post 16603081)

real housewives of independence

Originally Posted by ThaVirus (Post 16603061)

Yeah, you sound like one of these Gen Z pussies. "I was a victim" "I had unprocessed trauma" blah blah.

And you also sound like one of those dipshits bragging about never being arrested. "My friend left me his car keys" "my friends trusted me enough to watch a few kids after a wedding reception" lol THOSE ARE THINGS THAT SHOULD BE EXPECTED OF YOU.

But in all seriousness, I'm glad you feel like you're turning things around. It just sucks that you let it get so bad in the first place.. and, idk, you being so argumentative in this thread leads me to believe that you've got some more growing up to do.

Just realize that nearly every bad thing that has ever happened to you is a result of your shitty decision-making. Once you accept that, things will improve.

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16601584)

I had a lot of toxicity of my own I had to deal with, and once I started processing all the childhood shit, it wasn't the hugest step to get out of the whole "look at what those ****ed up females did to me!?" victimstance.

It was MY fault. I put myself in that position.



I had no business being in a relationship with ANYONE, but especially not her. But I was just running from pain.

Originally Posted by LoneWolf (Post 16603070)

Hey Rabble, maybe take a break from this thread. I can assure you that nothing good is going to come out of you continuing to bicker back and forth with other posters. Chalk this one up to “maybe I don’t share some of the wild things that happen in my life on a message board where it’s known that I’ve had a pretty ****ed up life for a few years.” People are going to be judge mental because that’s what humans do.

Keep working on you. The rest of this doesn’t really matter that much.

Originally Posted by notorious (Post 16603057)

A lot of hot girls have things so easy they don’t know how to handle the slightest adversity.

When it happens they default back to their childhood years and do what worked for them. Throw fits, cry a lot, etc. When they got a little older they resort to sex. That always fixed the problem in the past.

When you reject them after that their chambers are empty. Get one on drugs? JFC

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16603154)

She lives in Peculiar.

Originally Posted by rabblerouser (Post 16603180)

Like, if you have brain damage that makes you forget things in your short term memory, then forgive me for asking if you have any concept of what words mean when they are strung together to form a sentence? Because I bolded the parts you must've missed when you got up on your high horse to extoll the virtues of accountability to me :



Does it need to be quoted a third time? Do you need a breakdown of what each word means in this context?

Like, if you want me to even take you seriously, on any level, you have to do a better job of comprehending what I posted and not just skimming so you can be a smarmy asshole in your retort.

#fact #dobetteryour****ingself

Originally Posted by ThaVirus (Post 16603237)

Yeah, I was just speaking generally. You're not the only **** up on this board. It helps for others to hear that sort of thing.

Originally Posted by ThaVirus (Post 16603237)

But you do sound like a pussy, though. You're super sensitive and clearly still don't fully grasp the concept.

Originally Posted by ThaVirus (Post 16603237)

It was a bad decision for you to post this info here and you are not holding yourself accountable for the blowback you're getting. You decided to post this, you brought this on yourself.