ChiefsPlanet Spotlight: KurtCobain
 

Welcome back to this pre-game edition of the ChiefsPlanet spotlight!!!

This afternoon's guest was once in prison in St. Joseph, Missouri and was excited by the man who came to fill his hole- yep you guessed it! It's KurtCobain!!

Let's all ask him some friendly questions about the man who filled his hole and other about other nice topics.

Thank You for stopping by this edition of the ChiefsPlanet spotlight. Go Chiefs! **** Donk forever. Amen.

How is transitioning to life outside of prison? I've always assumed it would be incredibly difficult if you spent any amount of time inside. Is this an accurate assumption?

It was pretty difficult for Brooks

No questions. Just wanted to say it's good to see you back.

Thankyou.

And as far as q&a I'm game for anything. Just give me a little while because I'm about to serve dinner then doing a NA meeting.

Good for you. Seriously.

What is the yard like?

To follow up, what object or material did you make your shiv from and where did you store it in your cell. Thanks and I'll listen off the air...

I don't get on here of an evening anymore, but I'm looking forward to some entertaining reading in the morning.

Do you feel like your sphincter relaxes on demand a lot easier than it did before you went in? Not necessarily from rape but maybe from using your mud cupboard for smuggling/storing contraband?

Are you on parole? We hired this **** that was on parole and he told me that something reeruned like 89% (IIRC - whatever - stupid high number) of parolees go back to prison for violating it.

Questions like that will get a mutha****er shanked!

Did you have a job in prison? If so, what was it? And how do you get into specific jobs? Are they matching people up by aptitude or interest, or is it random?

What set you claiming?

How frequently were you able to relieve your reproductive backup?

Did you ever get ****ed in the ass?

Are you on the right path now?

ARE YOU GAY

Did you participate in receptive anal intercourse?
Did you pitch or catch?

Did any new invention in the outside world cause you to say “woah, wtf” when you made it out?

How many cartons of cigarettes could you fit into your ass at once

Did you bust any cheeks?

Split any wigs?

I wasn't gone quite that long. Definitely the self order machines at fast food place like McDonald's. Getting used to the Paseo not being the Paseo it's definitely something.

Top shelf answer

Such a turgid thread. You boys are making me horny! Kisses!

This question I am going to answer very seriously, because it covers an important aspect of my life right now.

I think it three important variables should be taken into consideration. A) How much time did you do? B) Do you want something better for yourself? C) How stable is your support system?

The first time I went to prison I did less than a year. I got out with a girlfriend that I have had for a long time and two young kids, one being born while I was gone. My mom was still locked up and my closest friends that I still considered family we're all users and some of them were active criminals. My girlfriend's mom let me move in and was very supportive. I did treatment and I wanted to make a better life for myself knowing I was only 20 years old and had my whole life ahead of me. But I quickly found out I wasn't ready to give up the lifestyle that I enjoyed so much. I spent three years Teeter tottering back and forth in between being a good person and loving father and being an abuser to the people that I loved.

I quit doing drugs all together I started drinking because I never had a drinking problem, I had a drug problem. Then the drinking got out of hand my new wife wanted a divorce and I quickly spiraled out of control and found myself back in prison.

Time in: 10 months Time Out: 3 1/2 years

My second incarceration I spent most of my time talking to a girl I had recently met before getting locked up. She validated the notion that I was still worth something to someone. I also spent time building a relationship with my mother who was a couple years into sobriety. It is well documented on here in the dating megathread what I went through upon my release with this chick. I thought I wanted to be a productive member of society but never took the time to really grasp what that meant. My entire mental state of being was founded on trying to make this girl I "Could not live without" stay with me. I moved in with her even after finding out she had a new boyfriend three weeks prior to my release. I was in a bar the night of getting out drunk. I ran from the cops the next night, but left my prison fleece jacket in the car with my name on it, so even though I got away, they called my PO. I was wanted almost immediately. I was high on Meth almost daily within two months. I had built a foundation built on broken promises and plenty of lies to my loved ones. I had good support, especially from (suprisingly at the time) my mom, but noone knew the extent of how bad I was trying to self sabotage my life. I also had a detailed mental health plan based on past successes, and I quit taking my meds a month(the whole supply DOC gave me) after getting out because I couldn't be bothered to go see a shrink on the streets. I was self medicating anyways.

Time In : 2 years Time Out : Almost four months.

In August 2015 I was sitting in the Jackson County jail a shell of who I wanted to be as a kid. I was broken.I was full of self pity and doubt. My friends and family would not come visit me, except for my mom. She said since I never gave up on her during her darkest times, now she wouldn't give up on me. Something in a visit she said that I'll never forget was about the Royals Championship. She said it was beautiful that nobody in KC did anything crazy after the win like setting fires or flipping cars. I said if I was out there I would have flipped a car, and right away she said "And that type of thinking is why you're in here." Such a by the way comment might have saved my life.

If you have loved ones getting out of prison wanting to adjust and become better versions of themselves if you have to know they can't do it for you. They can't do it for a girlfriend or their kids. They have to do it because they want it. They'll tell you they want it when they really don't. They'll tell themselves they want it when they really don't. It's making me tear up a little thinking about it. Being okay with hurting people who care about you and making victims out of strangers for selfish reasons is a mindset that is hard to break. So many dudes that have good hearts deep down will never make it out. They'll spend their lives in prison or die in the streets. It's ****ed up.

I have no advice for how you get to the point of reallly wanting it. You'll notice certain thought patterns changing and criminal habits breaking up a bitt.. Guilt for wrongdoings will be stronger, annd you will want to feel it, not hide it with drugs. Noone will believe you, you will most likely be past the point of anybody taking your word seriously. You will be okay with proving yourself to the people people every single moment of every day as you're being watched. And although you'll be scared, you'll feel good as the days go on.

My mom offered forme to come live in kansas with her and my grandma. She thought she could "fix" me. But I want to earn this. So I decided to come to the Healing House, a transitional living place. It's not cheap and it's not easy but I have a bubble to come back to and I get more and more freedom as I prove I deserve it. I work hard. I do alot of meetings. I tallk to a therapist everyy week. I was easily overwhelmed by riding the bus and going to walmart and being around women when I first got out, but it's getting better. I went to a parent teacher meeting yesterday. I loved it.

Time In : 4 years. Tiime Out : 2 months and one day at a time.

I've been to all three type of camps that they have in Missouri for some amount of time. Max it's rough because some those dudes are doing life and they don't give a ****. Mediums are off the chain. You have more than one hour like you do at the max camps but still less than at the minimum. There's drugs everywhere and Missouri prisons are usually separated by prison politics. Race is kind of big sometimes. The whites are split up by gangs or by where they are from. So there's just a lot of bull shit going on, overdoses fights stabbings etc. There's also a lot of sports most camps have a softball field and have leagues during the summer. That's fun. They are ran by Recreation officers who also hosts other things like handball tournaments and basketball tournaments Etc. The yard at minimum camps has less bs for the most part but they took out tobacco two years ago and minimum camps always have work release so there's a lot of tobacco and therefore a lot of gang activity and fights. However the one I was at in st.joe did have more tournaments and stuff going on then the medium I was at.

Yes. I was never allowed to work release but I did have a buddy that was on work release and brought in a lot of tobacco. He left it with me one day and it was about four bullets which one of them is at the size of a fat thumb, and the officers came in to search and I boofed all of it plus a lighter. It was surprisingly easy probably because of past incarcerations when I was on more BS and tobacco was legal and I would go to the hole and take a bunch with me up my butt.

I'm white so there is a series of gangs I guess I could have joined but I really really ****ing hate those people. Ssg, Orion, family values etc. Most of them created back in the day to bring young white guys in and keep them safe when they first get to prison and teach them the ropes. Now they roll up ten guys deep on white kids when they first get off the bus and press them out of everything. Its messed up
And if you're not in a gang or a baby(gay) it's smart to stick to a regional organization like the Joplin honkies, st joe cats, nasty north northeast(kc) etc. I'm from Independence so mostly I ran with northeast.

I can't fight. I have and will, I'm not afraid to get beat up. But more often than not I lose. In jackson county I was the only white guy in a 17 man wing, and I got jumped really bad four or five times. They kept trying to make me leave but I wouldn't because that type of thing follows you to every jail and prison you go to, so finally they just said that white boy crazy and let me be.

Do you have a job or any prospects of a job??... Best of luck to you...

It works if you work it, keep coming back.

You got a sponsor? What step you on?

Word of The Day - TURGID

Been working in a warehouse at subtropolis for a month also last weekend and this weekend I picked up a good side job laying brick.

Yup and step 4.

No.

Idk tbh

Ummmmm...wut?

I said I dont really know if I'm gay or not.

I dont think I am.

I believe so.

Thanks for sharing your story. I hope you continue to do well and stay out of the prison. Your username is one of my favorite singers. Too bad that he died young as he had so much potential.

Did you get any new tats when you were put away?

Right on. Own that shit.

Thanks for sharing all that. You've had more than your share of misfortune. So many broken people in the world, but it's encouraging to see how you are working hard to overcome and put it back together. Glad to know there is support out there. Keep at it brother.

Good luck to you Kurt Cobain as you obviously see where you have gone wrong. Now the battle is following the path down the right road and avoid the potholes that will come your way from time to time.

How many tats did you get in prison?

Two thoughts while reading this stand out in my mind even after reading on in the thread.

1. Although people are watching you, and you have to answer to a number of people right now, just remember that the only person you have to prove anything to is yourself. Only you can work through your self-doubt. As long as you're positive about yourself and moving on the path you want to be on, **** what everyone else thinks.

2. It's awesome that you're working hard and building yourself up by setting goals and accomplishing them. Just be sure to know that it's okay to ask for help when you need it. Everyone has something that they're trying to overcome, and addiction is no small hill.

That's a big part of it for sure. At this point I'm just letting people get to know the work in progress me, and if they're not on board down the road, **** em.

Maybe like 15 ish.

Years ago after me and the wifey split I got a hangman(hangwomen) with little dashes underneath just like the childhood game and her name spelt out but missing As because she lost. I got it above my heart. It was in very bad taste. A year ago my daughter said in the visiting room that her mom told her about it and it upset her. I promised i would get it covered up.

So a week before i left i was to have a flower done on my left pec for the coverup and "come as you are" across my collarbone. But the flower on that chest hurt so bad, worst place on the body imo, that I pussied out on the words.

Realistically.

How difficult is it to just do your time, stay out of the gang trouble and avoid a pickle in the butt. What percentage there are just guys who screwed up just doing their time...

Like in this last round how many times did someone try to marry you.

So...this is confusing to me.

https://i.imgflip.com/pm13k.jpg

I don't have a question for you but, after reading post 26(?), I do want to apologize. I saw Ubeja ****stain link your "mother" thread in an attempt to discredit (or whatever the **** his motives are) you. I then bumped the thread to be an asshole.

As a relatively new member I had no idea of your history. I just assumed it was either drug/alcohol induced or that you were really young and being a dipshit. As a recovering addict/alcoholic myself I am all too familiar with your story. I'm coming up on 12 years clean and 4 or 5 years without a drink (I am on MMJ after 2.5 years of pain pills. Long story). I was fortunate and never did any real time. 30 days here (Baltimore City ****ing sucked), weekend there.

Anyway, good on you brother. As far as one can gauge from a computer screen it looks like you really want it this time. Best of luck to you-One day at a time.

Here's what this post also tells me.....

Keep doing the therapy. Maybe forever. Making yourself accountable to a stranger can also make your more accountable to yourself.

Good stuff. Keep earning it every day.

Do you prefer jelly or syrup?

**** that's tough. Maybe jelly. Definitely petroleum jelly if we're talking lubricant for tobacco bullets.

I hope the best for you Kurt.

For tossing salad

That too.

Now that it's the offseason, taking more questions.

Ama

Why is it that you park in a driveway, and drive on a parkway?

Whatever happened with the dude who was supposed to give away that plaque?

Have you ever been walking through the diaper aisle in K-Mart and think to yourself boy I’d love to strap that on to a goat and see how long it takes before that thing collapses with the sheer amount of shit filling it

Now I'll never be able to walk through a Kmart diaper aisle without thinking that.

You ruined Bugs Blue Light Specials.
Not cool man. Not cool

Have you figured out if you're gay or not yet?

How were they going to make you leave? I mean, you're in prison.

By leaving I mean checking into protective custody.

He gave it to Luvs kid.

Ah, that's cool. I have a Derrick Thomas collector card I've been promising to send her for a couple years now. I really need to get that done.

Since you didn't win I'll give you my sweaty ChiefsPlanet shirt as a consolation prize.

Do you realize that alice in chains is better than nirvana?

Without Kurt Cobain's self-sacrifice, we might have never gotten the Foo Fighters.

Oh I threw my nominations the kids way, so in a way I want and I don't need a sweaty shirt. Thank you though, you're such a peach.

Alice in chains is alright. Nirvana is forever.

Soundgarden.

Well when the CD isn't skipping anyway...

Soundgarden is better than Alice in chains even when the CD is skipping.

Is Pearl Jam legit grunge?

Grunge needs a legit definition before you can define who is actually grunge.

The real Kurt Cobain had some pretty divisive thoughts on what Grunge was and how Pearl Jam wasn't it.

Divisive? As in people were actually angry that he didn't think they were? Seems like an odd thing to get bent about.

Anyway, I never thought too much one way or another until people started telling me Soundgarden was grunge. Not that it angered me, it just kinda surprised me and made me curious as to what the actual definition of it is. There doesn't seem to be a clear one.

Don’t like Pearl Jam. Or sound garden. Nirvana was awesome. So is foo fighters. And I like Alice In Chains. Oh. Btw, I am the deciding factor on Grunge.