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Originally Posted by Buck
Yes. I am ashamed of myself.
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Seriously don't be(or don't be excessively ashamed that can drive you to use more). Recognize that shit happens in this world. Yes you are responsible for getting yourself into your situation, but you also have the power to get yourself out of it. The worst thing you can do sometimes is to dwell on it(and get depressed for why it happened).
You've recognized that you have a problem which is a huge first step. Now it's time to go fix it. Just practice telling yourself no. Want to smoke, go out for a run and get your endorphins up instead. You live in SD take advantage of the weather. Work out instead of smoke out and kill two birds with one stone.
Yes professional help can help but it can also be a significant expense. You have to decide what you need. But the biggest issue is that it's now time for you to be in control, not what you're addicted to.