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From the age of 17 all the way until 3-4 years ago (age 31), I smoked pot probably 300 days of the year on average. And I don’t think there is anything ****ing wrong with it. I am not ashamed of it. Pot opened my mind, helped me find humor in things when things weren’t going well, instilled GOOD decision making...seriously, I would kick back and think things through thoroughly before making decisions unlike alcohol...which brings out the impulsive, 50 foot tall and nuke bomb proof version of me that I hate. I credit some of my worst decisions I’ve made in life to alcohol. I lose my inhibitions sometimes. Never with pot...ever.
And now I work at a place where I am subject to random piss tests. I just got off work and after a stressful night like tonight, there is nothing that I would rather do right now than just kick back and smoke a bowl and watch Always Sunny. But no. Random piss tests. And I make relatively decent money, so it would be catastrophic if I lost my job. It pisses me the **** off. I hate having to resort to the occasional beer-drinking after work because alcohol is, for sure, much worse for me than weed is. Seriously, **** this shit. I wish they would test you in a manner which they can tell when you had smoked and if you were stoned at work. All I want to do is smoke a ****ing bowl when I get off work in the morning and the kids are off to school...and there is nothing ****ing wrong with that. Hell, being 3rd shift, it’d ****ing help me sleep. And of course, alcohol keeps me up.
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