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Originally Posted by Buehler445
It terrifies the every living **** out of me to alter brain chemistry.
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Why? You do it every time you drink alcohol?
Fact is, my brain doesn't function the way other people's do. Period. My underlying problem IS my brain chemistry. My brain jumps into and out of a variety of material at any given moment in time. Holding a thought is easy for almost everybody but for me, I'll randomly dive down a rabbit hole in my own brain during a conversation or staff meeting only to emerge from my internal thoughts 30 minutes later wondering WTF I just missed. The upside is that I come up with great and creative ideas. The downside is that I missed a ton of shit. When you're in school, brains like that are punished. Aggressively.
I've heard all of the nonsense about food, drink, exercise, self-discipline and it's all bullshit coming from people who don't cope with what I cope with. You might as well tell a fish not to swim. It's baseless and stupid.
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