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Originally Posted by KurtCobain
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I have no advice for how you get to the point of reallly wanting it. You'll notice certain thought patterns changing and criminal habits breaking up a bitt.. Guilt for wrongdoings will be stronger, annd you will want to feel it, not hide it with drugs. Noone will believe you, you will most likely be past the point of anybody taking your word seriously. You will be okay with proving yourself to the people people every single moment of every day as you're being watched. And although you'll be scared, you'll feel good as the days go on.
My mom offered forme to come live in kansas with her and my grandma. She thought she could "fix" me. But I want to earn this. So I decided to come to the Healing House, a transitional living place. It's not cheap and it's not easy but I have a bubble to come back to and I get more and more freedom as I prove I deserve it. I work hard. I do alot of meetings. I tallk to a therapist everyy week. I was easily overwhelmed by riding the bus and going to walmart and being around women when I first got out, but it's getting better. I went to a parent teacher meeting yesterday. I loved it.
Time In : 4 years. Tiime Out : 2 months and one day at a time.
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Two thoughts while reading this stand out in my mind even after reading on in the thread.
1. Although people are watching you, and you have to answer to a number of people right now, just remember that the only person you have to prove anything to is yourself. Only you can work through your self-doubt. As long as you're positive about yourself and moving on the path you want to be on, **** what everyone else thinks.
2. It's awesome that you're working hard and building yourself up by setting goals and accomplishing them. Just be sure to know that it's okay to ask for help when you need it. Everyone has something that they're trying to overcome, and addiction is no small hill.