MJ, somehow I just read this thread for the first time. Brother, I'm so sorry for your loss and situation. A few things. First off, your OP about squeezing the shit out of the ones you love was great advice. This situation has already touched many many of us. I know that may not make much difference for how you feel, but it is true. I know you aren't a religious guy and that's cool. But, I know her spirit is there and there FOR YOU. I'm no therapist and while I've been married for 29 years, I've never been through anything like you are going through, so advice would be fruitless. I'd probably consider moving if it was me. Fresh start and all. I know you had the farm dream together, but if it's too painful to be there, perhaps she'd want you to try your best for a fresh start. Just a thought. PM if you need to talk.
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