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Originally Posted by loochy
Every single day. I might seem successful on the outside to others, but my job, while paying extremely well, is a soulless existence as a cog in a massive corporation that profits from the suffering and destruction of fellow humans. I can't just drink the koolaid like everyone else and hide behind "patriotism", "freedom", "our troops". I was pointed out at a very early age as an intellectually gifted individual and I've come nowhere close to realizing my potential, and at my age it's too late to make a major change, as my family depends on me. I've failed myself. I've failed my family because I want them to be proud of what I do, but I'm not even proud of what I do.
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If your family is proud of who you are, the father/husband, that’s what matters and where true meaning comes from. Happiness comes and goes. It’s fleeting, changing with the wind. Meaning is forever and is what everyone truly needs. You may not be happy day to day in work or proud or what you do there, but that does not a factor in who you are to the most important people around you.
And be careful with concepts like potential. It’s ambiguous and undefinable and “reaching it” is often impossible as it creates expectations one would never think to choose for themself.