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I’ve had a tough last couple years. Not going to going to bore you with too many details, but basically had a permanent falling out with some close friends who were very important to me. These people also happened to be coworkers so the circumstances meant a career change was necessary and I had to leave a job that I enjoyed.
It’s been rough since then. I look back at the events of what happened a lot. As weird as it sounds no one was really at fault. I was going through some stuff and they were going through their own shit and communication was bad and eventually before I knew what was going on, we got to a point where things were past the point of no return.
I’m relatively young compared to many here I imagine and I sort of thought that that job and those people were going to be pillars of my life going forward. It all crumbled on me and suddenly i felt like I had no identity. I’ll be honest almost two years later I’m still searching for that purpose again. I think I’m scared that something similar is going to happen to me again and it’s been incredibly difficult to be open with people and trust and all that emotional shit.
Long story short, yeah there are some things I would change there. I have a lot of time ahead of me so I’m sure someday It’ll be just an unfortunate blip in my life, but for now it’s something I constantly dwell on.
But it feels good to get some of that off my chest. Chiefs Planet: Just as good as any of the therapists I’ve been to.
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