['Hamas' Jenkins]

Originally Posted by quickssurfer

Please do not read this and make some witty/asshole comment because... i'm seriously concerned here. I know that there are a lot of elders on this board and I honestly need some advice.. In a nutshell:

I am a recent 5th year senior drop out at Ole Miss (The University of Mississippi). All I have to show for a education right now is a minor in biology and a near BA in liberal arts (psychology). I have no future plans to go back to school. College is for some people - not me.
My family is a total wreck. It has been that way for as long as I can remember. My mother is a bad mother by all standards. Take my word for it. My mother and father both can be viewed as a mirror of misery.
Okay so I'm a, nearly, 23 year old recovering cocaine addict. Boom!! now that that's out My family (mother's side; the one that matters) "officially" disowned me this xmas holiday. My mother came up from Jackson, MS a few days before xmas and took my car. She was paying for it anyway. I can't even begin to think about what's going on in my life right now. One thing is for sure, I smoke way too much ganja It is used for a "no feeling" feeling. I'm sure a few of you know what i'm talking about. Well this feeling is 100% necessary for me to live a pretty happy life. At any rate, I'm out of school and just gave my two weeks notice to my job. I was a computer repair technician, not A+ certified (i would take and pass the test if i had the money to take the blasted thing!). I had to quit because their office is moving across town and there is no possible way for me to communte to and from.
Job opportunity?? In my home town - Madison, MS?? I need this job working for Apple in Madison. Problem is, there are a lot of horrific events that had taken place in my childhood, in Madison. Every time that I'm around my mother or even in that town I am flooded with these bad memories. I cannot live there.
My grandparents live about 20 minutes from Madison and offer me a place to stay and transportation. I could manage to live with them but it would be very, very hard. My grandparents are very firm believers in the "word of god". I'm a little more open minded, you could say
I want to stay in Oxford but simply cannot afford to live on my own right now. A lot of bad decisions that I've made in the past are really catching up to me, financially. Oxford is a better fit for me emotionally but ****ing Madison could help solve my financial and drug issues... maybe.. i don't know. What do you guys think? Despite the lack of details that you would probably need in order to understand my situation a bit more, what would you do if you were me?

Soapbox Time: (Right Wingers, feel free to lambaste me for being a bleeding-heart liberal)

The guy is a recovering cocaine addict, and it's somehow a reason to pile on him? That's pathetic. I wonder how some of you would feel about people with drug problems if they were closer to you than some person on an internet message board. Those of you that hack away at someone that don't know anything about how easy it is to become addicted are grade A ass clowns. If this is all you have in your lives to make you feel better about yourself, well I'd rather be in rehab, because you are moral cripples with souls of dogshit.

Let the neg rep pile on...