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Originally Posted by MadMax
I was a heavy intravenous cocaine user from 83-85 I quit cold turkey because I felt I had become something sub-human. I joined the Army and did 6 years there to continue my recovery. I know it's not that simple, but it saved my life. Oh I also have a little left over friend from that era called Hepatitis C and it reminds me every freakin day what an asshole I am. I still battle an alcohol and tobacco addiction. The sad thing is the alcohol is killing me but for some reason I just won't let it go. I truly believe it is all just a matter of how much do you care. It is in you and not what others do or say. I sadly have chosen to not give a shit anymore  It has to come from within you and not others. I could go on about the health and social problems my addictions have caused but i've already said too much I will never post here again I feel reeruned. |
Max
Don't sell your self short. At 30 I was and dual cocaine and heroin addict, smoking 2 packs a day and drinking like a fiend. All the time I was functional albeit seriously screwed up. I had an extremely bad temper and it was after a third arrest that someone confronted me about everything. I was basically given the choice of cleaning up my act or something very unpleasant. I started by cutting the drugs first. I went cold turkey and walked away from everyone I knew that used. After I accomplished that I cut down My drinking to where it was not an issue. I then quit smoking cold turkey. Unfortunately I substituted food every thing else and gained 200 pounds.I have now started the weight loss part and have lost 80 pounds.
The thing with most people I know is that they are so busy looking ahead at what obstacles are in the way. That they forget about the ones they have overcome.
I am no Sister Mary Sunshine. It was hard as hell and most ex user's I meet love to feel sorry for themselves. I would not consider myself fully recovered until I lose the weight.
Best advice I can give anyone is don't feel sorry for yourself and either get busy living or get busy dying.
Ang