Well...I can't help you much.
But here, have my $12K in Casinocash. You may be up against it in RL, but you're now a rich man in the CP gameroom
Sorry man. I'll say only this: I know a person that had to go through it. He said it was brutally painful for a year or so, but it was the best thing he ever did when it came right down to it. Sometimes a clean slate makes all the difference.