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I started thinking about this yesterday and then again last night.

I've been a Chief fan for 38 long years. I've seen every game in person or on TV since 1989. Before that I listened to them on the radio when they didn't show them up here in northern Iowa and obviously before Directv/ST.

Back in the 70's I would stay up to watch MNF just to catch one highlight of the Chiefs on the halftime show, if you were lucky.

It seems crazy now that I can watch every game, that I would even fathom not watching them. But after I hear that the Chiefs simply weren't in the Manning sweepstakes because of money and then I see what I saw last night, it really makes me think, why am I watching? And at times feel like am I wasting my time? Because it sure doesn't feel like this franchise is putting everything into winning as much as I have the past almost 40 years.

I had way more anger yesterday than good feelings that came out of my normal 12+ hours in the Man cave of watching Pre-game and actual games.
I hated that the Chiefs lost, hated that the Broncos won, so what's the point really? I'm waiting for that one magical season from the Chiefs that may or may not happen. Will it all really be worth it?

I know this, I think I'm addicted. If I tried not to watch football on Sunday I might go nuts, but when I do, I'm so angry most of the time (at the Chiefs) I'm crazy. I have literally watched every Sunday of football since I was 10 and this December I will be 48. It has consumed me and I don't know how to quit.