Suicide?

[cdcox]

If you love your wife and kid, don't do this.
If you want to be a better father and husband, don't do this.
This will only make the situation worse for your wife and kids.
You aren't thinking rignt.
Get some help. I will make a difference.
You might have to do some hard work to get better, but I promise that hard work will be a whole lot easier than what you are planning to put your family through.

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