FAX And The Morphine Withdrawal

[FAX]

Boys and girls, this is freaking hard. Crap ... I can barely type, too ...

I've been taking upwards of 200 mg of morphine sulfate daily for the last year and a half since prior to my back surgery last October.

Anyhow, I got a little crazy and quit the pills Wednesday night ... mother****ing child of God's abandon ****ing fallen angels ... I swear, I feel like I've been trying to climb out of the Devil's asshole for the last four days. This is the most difficult thing I've ever done in my entire freaking life.

Do not ... ever ... do not become addicted to narcotics, peeps. They will rock your world and ruin your ass. That is all.

FAX THE HALF DEAD AND WISHING IT WASN'T JUST HALF

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Originally Posted by cdcox

My daughter was on and off medically-supplied narcotic pain meds for 4-1/2 years beginning at age 14. She turned to street supplies late in 2009. She has been in rehab the last 6 mos (I paid for 5 of those out of pocket). She just got home last week. At 20 she has a 10th grade education, no job, and no driver's licence. She basically lost 5 years of her young life to those damn things.

[FAX]

Saturday Report From Satan's Buttcheeks:

First off ... never, ever, ever become dependent upon narcotic pain pills, guys. Ever. Tread carefully in this area ... I do not care what kind of man you think you are, I promise you that they are the Devil's poop pellets and are guaranteed to kick your ass right back to yo' mama.

Did a ton of research last night into this whole "lethargy" thing that Mr. beach tribe warned me of. He was correct. It sucks. It's like you cannot move ... almost paralyzed or something ... arms/legs/head feel like lead ... supreme effort just to move ... crazy.

Anyhow, I did this research and learned about the effects of long-term morphine use on the pituitary gland and the hypothalamus section of the brain ... it basically shuts them down. Picked up some supplements to help stimulate those parts and got a B12 shot. With luck, I might be able to fight my way through, now.

Thanks for all the support, guys.

FAX

[kstater]

Hang in there Mr. FAX.

[big nasty kcnut]

Fax stay strong the beautiful and witty mrs. Fax need you to be strong for her. You can kick this thing. I myself was addicted to sleeping pills cause i couldn't feel like falling asleep cause my mind is a computer that always working. i quit it a long time ago still can't sleep normal like that why I'm always like working night shift i can sleep a little better. stay strong.

[Buehler445]

FAX.

Sorry to hear of your troubles. Fight. Hard. Beat it. Don't just beat it. Kick it's ****ing ass to oblivion. You're strong enough.

How has the pain been since you quit the meds? Are you able to handle that?

Best of luck FAX. Thoughts and Prayers for you bud.

[FAX]

Originally Posted by Buehler445

How has the pain been since you quit the meds? Are you able to handle that?

Thanks for the kind words, Mr. Buehler445.

No pain. Obviously, when I started the morphine/dilaudid way back 18 months ago, I was in a lot of pain. But, to be completely honest with you, I probably could have (and should have) quit the meds a couple of months after the surgery (January, maybe). I didn't, though.

The dependency/addiction set in. The morphine masked all my emotions and took my cares and worries away. Plus, the doctors are more than willing to keep you on the meds until your brain turns to absolute mush.

So, I'm good. I got really pissed at myself for succumbing to the addictive behavior. I feel no physical pain ... only great regret for not having faced down this evil bitch earlier. I fear I am a major pussy when it comes to narcotics.

FAX

[DaneMcCloud]

Originally Posted by FAX

I fear I am a major pussy when it comes to narcotics.

FAX

Most people are and there's no fault in that.

I took psychology one and two in high school. We studied a case where a person that went in for routine surgery became addicted to morphine. It was very scary.

Fast forward a year, and I needed an emergency appendectomy. I had over 300 hundred internal stitches and nine cat-gut sutures to sew up my stomach (I'd been training three times a day the entire summer for football and my stomach was a rock).

I woke up and felt like ****ing Hell. I can still remember that feeling, even more than 25 years later. The nurse came in and wanted to administer morphine in my drip and I said no. She was shocked and asked again. Again, I said no. I was too terrified about what I'd read to ever let that in my body.

I've never taken narcotics and never want to take narcotics. Some people have a difficult time separating themselves from those drugs and even at age 17, I knew that I'd be one of those people.

You'll be fine, Dude.

[patteeu]

Originally Posted by FAX

Thanks for the kind words, Mr. Buehler445.

No pain. Obviously, when I started the morphine/dilaudid way back 18 months ago, I was in a lot of pain. But, to be completely honest with you, I probably could have (and should have) quit the meds a couple of months after the surgery (January, maybe). I didn't, though.

The dependency/addiction set in. The morphine masked all my emotions and took my cares and worries away. Plus, the doctors are more than willing to keep you on the meds until your brain turns to absolute mush.

So, I'm good. I got really pissed at myself for succumbing to the addictive behavior. I feel no physical pain ... only great regret for not having faced down this evil bitch earlier. I fear I am a major pussy when it comes to narcotics.

FAX

Good for you for kicking the habit.

How did you keep getting the meds after the pain went away? Did you just tell the doctor that you still had pain? I would have thought your doctor would have caught on by now.

[FAX]

Yeah, you were smart, Mr. DaneMcCloud.

I'm not the first, nor will I be the last (sadly) to deal with an addition/dependency to prescription opiates. And, frankly, I'm utterly unashamed to say that they kicked my ass to hell and gone. The narcosis (euphoria) they provide is like nothing in the world.

If it wasn't for the fact that they slowly but surely ruin every aspect of your life in every possible and conceivable respect, they wouldn't be so bad.

FAX

[DaneMcCloud]

Originally Posted by FAX

Yeah, you were smart, Mr. DaneMcCloud.

I'm not the first, nor will I be the last (sadly) to deal with an addition/dependency to prescription opiates. And, frankly, I'm utterly unashamed to say that they kicked my ass to hell and gone. The narcosis (euphoria) they provide is like nothing in the world.

If it wasn't for the fact that they slowly but surely ruin every aspect of your life in every possible and conceivable respect, they wouldn't be so bad.

FAX

You're going to be fine and writing in no time.

Look at this way: You have a shit ton of things to write about now.

[FAX]

Originally Posted by patteeu

Good for you for kicking the habit.

How did you keep getting the meds after the pain went away? Did you just tell the doctor that you still had pain? I would have thought your doctor would have caught on by now.

You have much to learn about the ways of modern medicine, Mr. patteeu.

They know you're hooked. Eventually, one of two things happen; either you screw up a piss test (because you over-dosed during the month) and they take away your meds or you just keep getting the scripts because they know you can't help yourself. Once a month, you return to the pain clinic, pick up your script, and pay about 300 bucks for a 15 minute consult. That's the deal. No questions. No problem.

Not once did any of my doctors (about 6) consult with me as to a method or means for getting off the drugs. Not one time. There are more people in this country addicted to prescription pain meds than we can imagine.

FAX

[DaneMcCloud]

Originally Posted by FAX

Not once did any of my doctors (about 6) consult with me as to a method or means for getting off the drugs. Not one time. There are more people in this country addicted to prescription pain meds than we can imagine.

FAX

I have a neighbor and friend that's a UCLA Psychology professor and we often chat on while walking our dogs.

He's told me that these days, "psychology" is more about prescribing drugs, when it should be about therapy and drugs when needed.

Our whole society is becoming over-medicated.

Now, by that, I'm not talking about necessary medications for asthmatics, allergies, cholesterol, heart, cancer, etc.

I'm talking about the wholesale selling of narcotics and psychotropic drugs to "solve" problems that should be addressed otherwise.

It's very troubling.

[FAX]

Originally Posted by DaneMcCloud

I have a neighbor and friend that's a UCLA Psychology professor and we often chat on while walking our dogs.

He's told me that these days, "psychology" is more about prescribing drugs, when it should be about therapy and drugs when needed.

Our whole society is becoming over-medicated.

Now, by that, I'm not talking about necessary medications for asthmatics, allergies, cholesterol, heart, cancer, etc.

I'm talking about the wholesale selling of narcotics and psychotropic drugs to "solve" problems that should be addressed otherwise.

It's very troubling.

Here's "troubling" ...

I happen to know for an absolute fact that Vanderbilt has a special ward (they don't talk about) set aside for physicians and nurses who become addicted to prescription narcotics. A dirty little secret. 15 beds in the ward and they're full all the time ... detoxing the same people who are prescribing to people like me.

Not that I blame them ... I was the one who kept demanding an increase in my dosage ... up to the 200 mg per day levels (which I personally prefer for maximum highness). The fact is that those drugs are extremely available and addictive ... I note with interest that some people can become addicted to morphine sulfate in less than 24 hours of use. Amazing, really.

FAX

[cdcox]

Many doctors are real pill pushers. I had finger surgery last year. The doc gave me a script for 30 pills. I took 3 or 4 of them after the surgery and another couple when they pulled the pin out. I saw him every couple weeks for about a 4 month period and every time he asked me if I needed anything for the pain. At one point he wrote me a script that I didn't even want and never filled. I have no doubt he would have written me a script every time I went if I asked for it. These were low dosage, but there was no way anyone needed the number of pills he was offering for the level of the pain involved in that procedure.

Hope you get your energy back, FAX. Good to see you here.