I won my secret internal battle.

[bogey]

I stopped smoking on April 8th 2013, I stopped drinking on July 8th 2013. I have been having secret internal battles with myself for many, many years. I came clean to my wife last night about my drinking problem. My secret internal battles are no longer a secret. I wish I could fast forward 6 months to prove to my wife and myself that I'm sincere. This is a GOOD ****ING DAY. I wanted to post this on here because this is my version of shouting out to the world, and none of you good people know me. Ya'll have a good day, ya hear? Way to go ME!

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Mr. Flopnuts

Glad to hear things are well Bogey. Keep up the good fight!

Thanks.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by KcMizzou

Neither have I. I always think, "except this or that" In the end, I find a reason to drink most any night. I take care of everything... get the important shit done. I show up and do well at my job. So, I'm "functional". The fact is, I just get BORED.

But recently I've been thinking about my age, and if this continues... odds are I'm gonna die pretty young. So, yeah.. I need to make a change.

It definitely had an effect on my body. Since I quit, my poops are getting solid again! Very satisfying.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by houstonwhodat

When you say you haven't had a drink "yet".

Yet means "you're eligible too"

You can always fall off that wagon.

Yea, I'm not using the word "yet" for exactly that reason. I'm probably delusional, but I choose to attack this as if I've got it figured out. For me, the battle isn't with alcohol, it's with me.

[Fish]

Originally Posted by bogey

Yea, I'm not using the word "yet" for exactly that reason. I'm probably delusional, but I choose to attack this as if I've got it figured out. For me, the battle isn't with alcohol, it's with me.

That makes a helluva lot of sense. I've come to acknowledge that my family has a hereditary issue with addiction. Be it alcohol or whatever, doesn't matter. My younger sister just within the last few days has admitted to her painkiller addiction. Which I've been pleading with her about for years. Turns out she's been popping 15-20 Oxy pills a day. And this is after doing almost 2 years behind bars in the past for it. Looking at detox options now.

Keep with it. I know how addiction can ruin lives. Even entire families. Sounds like you're already seeing the benefits of rising above it, and that's gotta be huge motivation.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Fish

That makes a helluva lot of sense. I've come to acknowledge that my family has a hereditary issue with addiction. Be it alcohol or whatever, doesn't matter. My younger sister just within the last few days has admitted to her painkiller addiction. Which I've been pleading with her about for years. Turns out she's been popping 15-20 Oxy pills a day. And this is after doing almost 2 years behind bars in the past for it. Looking at detox options now.

Keep with it. I know how addiction can ruin lives. Even entire families. Sounds like you're already seeing the benefits of rising above it, and that's gotta be huge motivation.

I can relate to inherited addictions. I got mine from my Moms side of the family. As a kid, we used to have huge family reunions. Usually they were local, at a lake or camp ground, sometimes we would travel. I remember it was a drunken fest for the adults. My grandparents, my Great Uncles and Aunts, my immediate Uncle, my Mom, my older grown up cousins... it seemed like everyone was drunk. Now, my memories of these reunions are nothing but GREAT!! They were a blast, everyone let loose and partied till the sun came up and then we would go fishing and the drunken fun continued. IT WAS GREAT!!! Now that I'm the old Uncle (at time the obnoxious drunken Uncle), I see the pattern continuing with my brother, my cousins, my nieces and nephews and of course my Mom. I only hope my child didn't get the gene. I've let her know that she was born with an addictive personality and she needs to be aware of it. She sees it in her Nana (my Mom), Nana usually starts slurring around 3PM or 4PM. In a way, Nana's slurring may help my daughter get a handle on this MOTHER ****ING ADDICTION! She's certainly helped make my daughter aware.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Fish

That makes a helluva lot of sense. I've come to acknowledge that my family has a hereditary issue with addiction. Be it alcohol or whatever, doesn't matter. My younger sister just within the last few days has admitted to her painkiller addiction. Which I've been pleading with her about for years. Turns out she's been popping 15-20 Oxy pills a day. And this is after doing almost 2 years behind bars in the past for it. Looking at detox options now.

Keep with it. I know how addiction can ruin lives. Even entire families. Sounds like you're already seeing the benefits of rising above it, and that's gotta be huge motivation.

Good luck to your little sis! Positive thoughts going out to her from one addict to another.

[bogey]

To most everyone, this is just another thread. To me, it's a very helpful outlet. I have had many victories in my lifetime (many failures too). Quitting drinking is by far my greatest victory. I am saving my life (literally). I need to keep reminding myself of that.
A friend of mine joined AA several years ago. I reached out to him and told him I had quit drinking. He told me how proud he was of me and that he'd fallen off the wagon a year ago, but he quit drinking again on July 2nd. After I heard his story I said to myself, hey, I can fall off the wagon and climb back on also. I had to convince myself that I can't do that. Gotta stay on this wagon forever. Nobody knows about that little battle that I won. Now you know. That is all.

Keep on, bro. I've behaved myself all week. Had zero beverages Sunday, two postgame beverages Tuesday, and zero last night. Was planning to have 2 or 3 tonight but now our games have been cancelled. I wouldn't be doing this without this thread.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Phobia

Keep on, bro. I've behaved myself all week. Had zero beverages Sunday, two postgame beverages Tuesday, and zero last night. Was planning to have 2 or 3 tonight but now our games have been cancelled. I wouldn't be doing this without this thread.

You keep on as well, sir. Find what works for you and stick with it. It feels good to feel good about myself. I don't feel comfortable bragging about myself at home. So I do it here. I'm glad this thread has had a positive effect on you. We've earned the right to brag a little.

[JoeyChuckles]

Keep it up!! Hopefully it gets just a little bit easier every day.

[bogey]

In the beginning, the wife was thrilled that I quit smoking and drinking. Now, it's probably just another day. That's not the case for the one that quit. Not a day has gone by that I haven't talked myself out of having a drink. I shouldn't expect anyone to pat me on the back, it's no ones problem except mine. I know I'm supposed to be doing this for myself, not others. Were I not trying to save my marriage, I would go home tonight and fix myself a nice cold Martini, sit in my back yard light up a cigarette and I would be in heaven. 3 months, 2 weeks, 5 days without smoking. Day 18 without booze. I'm very happy.

[bogey]

or am I?

[Rain Man]

Originally Posted by bogey

or am I?

I think you're happy. What's not to be happy about? We live in a world with Dr. Pepper and kittens and 24 hours a day of Big Bang Theory reruns. We live in a world where pornography is easily available and you can buy a double cheeseburger for a dollar. I mean, what's not to like?

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Rain Man

I think you're happy. What's not to be happy about? We live in a world with Dr. Pepper and kittens and 24 hours a day of Big Bang Theory reruns. We live in a world where pornography is easily available and you can buy a double cheeseburger for a dollar. I mean, what's not to like?

When you put it that way, how can I not be happy. Thanks Rain Man.

[Rain Man]

Originally Posted by bogey

When you put it that way, how can I not be happy. Thanks Rain Man.

Here. Have a cheeseburger and enjoy this kitten picture.