Do you ever wonder if it's worth it?

[NewChief]

After an exhausting Saturday of watching the Razorbacks play through two rain delays, I started pondering fandom.

Back when Trent was playing, the wife and I had no choice but to follow everything that was happening. We lived and died on Sundays. A loss or poor game would basically ruin my week until the following Friday, at which point I'd really stop dwelling on the past and start looking forward to the future. A good game, while a mood elevator, wouldn't really have a proportionate positive effect as a loss.

When Trent started playing less and less, we stopped following football as much and started enjoying having our Fall back to do other things. Eventually, though, we decided to start really following the Razorbacks because we felt there was a vacuum in our weekend (and she was born and raised on football, so doesn't really know what else to do with the Fall), and we're contemplating getting season tickets so our kids can be raised tailgating and enjoying football like she was.

On Saturday, though, I began to wonder if I really want to become a fan (as in a fanatic) again. I was screaming at the TV. Throwing shit. Stomping around the house. Cussing like a sailor. Basically acting like an idiot. At the end, the Razorbacks won... but I didn't really feel elated. I was just exhausted. It didn't make my night better. It didn't make my weekend better. If we would have lost, though, it would have completely ruined my night and weekend.

Is there help out there for people like me who, when they become a fan, live and die by their teams? Are there others who suffer from the same syndrome, or do I just need to get a grip?

Edit: I realize the Chiefs are on a roll and people are feeling positive about the team... so this may be poor timing for this post.