Life I won my secret internal battle. - Page 11

**KcMizzou** · 07-15-2013, 08:36 PM

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Originally Posted by MOhillbilly

I've never had a want to be completely sober.

Neither have I. I always think, "except this or that" In the end, I find a reason to drink most any night. I take care of everything... get the important shit done. I show up and do well at my job. So, I'm "functional". The fact is, I just get BORED.

But recently I've been thinking about my age, and if this continues... odds are I'm gonna die pretty young. So, yeah.. I need to make a change.

**bogey** · 07-16-2013, 10:30 AM

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Originally Posted by KcMizzou

Neither have I. I always think, "except this or that" In the end, I find a reason to drink most any night. I take care of everything... get the important shit done. I show up and do well at my job. So, I'm "functional". The fact is, I just get BORED.

But recently I've been thinking about my age, and if this continues... odds are I'm gonna die pretty young. So, yeah.. I need to make a change.

It definitely had an effect on my body. Since I quit, my poops are getting solid again! Very satisfying.

**bogey** · 07-16-2013, 10:22 AM

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Originally Posted by MOhillbilly

I've never had a want to be completely sober.

Ha! Me neither, until now. But I'm an old **** and it finally started catching up with me. You have many years of self inflicted abuse before you catch up with me.

07-15-2013, 08:05 PM

I've been sucking at my little plan to reduce my consumption at softball. In fact, I've bought a 30 pack of beer the last two times I went to the park. Obviously, the easiest way not to binge drink is to not fork out the money for it. So my new plan is to simply not buy it and not bring more than a few bucks for a couple brews and gatorades. I know I'm not an alcoholic because I don't really feel any desire to drink heavily outside of the ballpark so I'm just addressing that aspect of my life... and doing it poorly so far.

**bogey** · 07-16-2013, 10:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

I've been sucking at my little plan to reduce my consumption at softball. In fact, I've bought a 30 pack of beer the last two times I went to the park. Obviously, the easiest way not to binge drink is to not fork out the money for it. So my new plan is to simply not buy it and not bring more than a few bucks for a couple brews and gatorades. I know I'm not an alcoholic because I don't really feel any desire to drink heavily outside of the ballpark so I'm just addressing that aspect of my life... and doing it poorly so far.

To be honest, my softball skills are no better sober than they were drunk. I'm just good enough to not make a fool out of myself. I do love playing the game though.

**Mr. Flopnuts** · 07-15-2013, 08:37 PM

Glad to hear things are well Bogey. Keep up the good fight!

**bogey** · 07-16-2013, 10:26 AM

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Originally Posted by Mr. Flopnuts

Glad to hear things are well Bogey. Keep up the good fight!

Thanks.

**bogey** · 07-18-2013, 02:04 PM

To most everyone, this is just another thread. To me, it's a very helpful outlet. I have had many victories in my lifetime (many failures too). Quitting drinking is by far my greatest victory. I am saving my life (literally). I need to keep reminding myself of that.
A friend of mine joined AA several years ago. I reached out to him and told him I had quit drinking. He told me how proud he was of me and that he'd fallen off the wagon a year ago, but he quit drinking again on July 2nd. After I heard his story I said to myself, hey, I can fall off the wagon and climb back on also. I had to convince myself that I can't do that. Gotta stay on this wagon forever. Nobody knows about that little battle that I won. Now you know. That is all.

07-18-2013, 04:22 PM

Keep on, bro. I've behaved myself all week. Had zero beverages Sunday, two postgame beverages Tuesday, and zero last night. Was planning to have 2 or 3 tonight but now our games have been cancelled. I wouldn't be doing this without this thread.

**bogey** · 07-18-2013, 05:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

Keep on, bro. I've behaved myself all week. Had zero beverages Sunday, two postgame beverages Tuesday, and zero last night. Was planning to have 2 or 3 tonight but now our games have been cancelled. I wouldn't be doing this without this thread.

You keep on as well, sir. Find what works for you and stick with it. It feels good to feel good about myself. I don't feel comfortable bragging about myself at home. So I do it here. I'm glad this thread has had a positive effect on you. We've earned the right to brag a little.

JoeyChuckles · 07-18-2013, 07:03 PM

Keep it up!! Hopefully it gets just a little bit easier every day.

**bogey** · 07-26-2013, 02:28 PM

In the beginning, the wife was thrilled that I quit smoking and drinking. Now, it's probably just another day. That's not the case for the one that quit. Not a day has gone by that I haven't talked myself out of having a drink. I shouldn't expect anyone to pat me on the back, it's no ones problem except mine. I know I'm supposed to be doing this for myself, not others. Were I not trying to save my marriage, I would go home tonight and fix myself a nice cold Martini, sit in my back yard light up a cigarette and I would be in heaven. 3 months, 2 weeks, 5 days without smoking. Day 18 without booze. I'm very happy.

**Buehler445** · 07-26-2013, 03:38 PM

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Originally Posted by bogey

In the beginning, the wife was thrilled that I quit smoking and drinking. Now, it's probably just another day. That's not the case for the one that quit. Not a day has gone by that I haven't talked myself out of having a drink. I shouldn't expect anyone to pat me on the back, it's no ones problem except mine. I know I'm supposed to be doing this for myself, not others. Were I not trying to save my marriage, I would go home tonight and fix myself a nice cold Martini, sit in my back yard light up a cigarette and I would be in heaven. 3 months, 2 weeks, 5 days without smoking. Day 18 without booze. I'm very happy.

Keep up the good fight sir. It will be worth it.

What are you doing with the extra money from not buying booze/tobacco? Maybe you can buy yourself something as a reward to keep yourself going.

**bogey** · 07-26-2013, 03:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Buehler445

Keep up the good fight sir. It will be worth it.

What are you doing with the extra money from not buying booze/tobacco? Maybe you can buy yourself something as a reward to keep yourself going.

As a matter of fact. Last week-end I bought myself a new air compressor and this week-end I'm getting a new palm sander. Tonight, I'm going to buy myself a double cheeseburger.

vailpass · 07-26-2013, 04:47 PM

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Originally Posted by bogey

As a matter of fact. Last week-end I bought myself a new air compressor and this week-end I'm getting a new palm sander. Tonight, I'm going to buy myself a double cheeseburger.

Treat yourself! Good to see you doing well.

07-15-2013, 08:05 PM	#4
Phobia Guest Casino cash: $	I've been sucking at my little plan to reduce my consumption at softball. In fact, I've bought a 30 pack of beer the last two times I went to the park. Obviously, the easiest way not to binge drink is to not fork out the money for it. So my new plan is to simply not buy it and not bring more than a few bucks for a couple brews and gatorades. I know I'm not an alcoholic because I don't really feel any desire to drink heavily outside of the ballpark so I'm just addressing that aspect of my life... and doing it poorly so far.
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07-15-2013, 08:37 PM	#6
Mr. Flopnuts FINALLY! The wait is over. Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: The Future Is Now!!! Casino cash: $19947565	Glad to hear things are well Bogey. Keep up the good fight!
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07-18-2013, 02:04 PM	#8
bogey Supporter Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: California Casino cash: $10005290	To most everyone, this is just another thread. To me, it's a very helpful outlet. I have had many victories in my lifetime (many failures too). Quitting drinking is by far my greatest victory. I am saving my life (literally). I need to keep reminding myself of that. A friend of mine joined AA several years ago. I reached out to him and told him I had quit drinking. He told me how proud he was of me and that he'd fallen off the wagon a year ago, but he quit drinking again on July 2nd. After I heard his story I said to myself, hey, I can fall off the wagon and climb back on also. I had to convince myself that I can't do that. Gotta stay on this wagon forever. Nobody knows about that little battle that I won. Now you know. That is all.
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07-18-2013, 04:22 PM	#9
Phobia Guest Casino cash: $	Keep on, bro. I've behaved myself all week. Had zero beverages Sunday, two postgame beverages Tuesday, and zero last night. Was planning to have 2 or 3 tonight but now our games have been cancelled. I wouldn't be doing this without this thread.
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07-18-2013, 07:03 PM	#11
JoeyChuckles Bring It Home Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: North Haverbrook Casino cash: $10007012	Keep it up!! Hopefully it gets just a little bit easier every day.
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07-26-2013, 02:28 PM	#12
bogey Supporter Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: California Casino cash: $10005290	In the beginning, the wife was thrilled that I quit smoking and drinking. Now, it's probably just another day. That's not the case for the one that quit. Not a day has gone by that I haven't talked myself out of having a drink. I shouldn't expect anyone to pat me on the back, it's no ones problem except mine. I know I'm supposed to be doing this for myself, not others. Were I not trying to save my marriage, I would go home tonight and fix myself a nice cold Martini, sit in my back yard light up a cigarette and I would be in heaven. 3 months, 2 weeks, 5 days without smoking. Day 18 without booze. I'm very happy.
Posts: 2,264