I won my secret internal battle.

It's good to be mature enough to recognize when it's becoming problematic. Time to take control of that aspect of my life before it gets out of control. I keep beer in my fridge and sometimes it will sit for weeks or months before I touch it but I'll drink a ton of busch light over 4 or 5 hours at softball games and even more at an all-day saturday tournament. It's not even incredibly enjoyable for me because I'm a beer snob. I can easily replace it with water or sports drinks. Not trying to take anything from bogey, just representing in case somebody else needs to feel like they're not alone with their struggles.

[Simply Red]

What's bad about it is - it will sneak up on you - and it's really easy to be all like 'oh I got this shit' - then you find yourself having more and more days and nights of regret - I think at that point you know you have an issue, or you should know.

Guys I'm not saying this to be neat or rad or anything - really I don't care. I had some nights I should have died - about four to be precise - there were times I cried to quit and even looked up and cried out for help, aloud and drunken, while doing so. maniacal

It's not a joke - it'll **** your world if you let it - and I'm always here - I don't care which poster - I'll do my best to help you psychologically against this beast.

ok I'm done now - my sermon is over and I'm off to bed. I'm speaking from my heart tho.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Simply Red

What's bad about it is - it will sneak up on you - and it's really easy to be all like 'oh I got this shit' - then you find yourself having more and more days and nights of regret - I think at that point you know you have an issue, or you should know.

Guys I'm not saying this to be neat or rad or anything - really I don't care. I had some nights I should have died - about four to be precise - there were times I cried to quit and even looked up and cried out for help, aloud and drunken, while doing so. maniacal

It's not a joke - it'll **** your world if you let it - and I'm always here - I don't care which poster - I'll do my best to help you psychologically against this beast.

ok I'm done now - my sermon is over and I'm off to bed. I'm speaking from my heart tho.

This thread has been more helpful to me than any of you can possibly imagine... seriously, Thank you!

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Phobia

It's good to be mature enough to recognize when it's becoming problematic. Time to take control of that aspect of my life before it gets out of control. I keep beer in my fridge and sometimes it will sit for weeks or months before I touch it but I'll drink a ton of busch light over 4 or 5 hours at softball games and even more at an all-day saturday tournament. It's not even incredibly enjoyable for me because I'm a beer snob. I can easily replace it with water or sports drinks. Not trying to take anything from bogey, just representing in case somebody else needs to feel like they're not alone with their struggles.

Speaking for myself, it is truly helpful to know that I'm not alone with my struggle. I appreciate it Phobia.

You're a good dude, SR.

[vailpass]

Good luck dude. Know what you mean. I'm in the middle of a bad one. Afraid I might die today. Don't know how to beat this. Have all the money in the world and it doesn't mean a thing.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by vailpass

Good luck dude. Know what you mean. I'm in the middle of a bad one. Afraid I might die today. Don't know how to beat this. Have all the money in the world and it doesn't mean a thing.

What do you need vailpass?

[vailpass]

Originally Posted by bogey

What do you need vailpass?

It's too much to go into, should never have said that. Good luck to you.

Originally Posted by vailpass

It's too much to go into, should never have said that. Good luck to you.

Hang in there, bud. Whatever it is. You're a good dude.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by bogey

What do you need vailpass?

I sent you a message.

[Simply Red]

Vailpass are you still online?

[Mr. Flopnuts]

So, how's it going Bogey? Let's make this a support thread. I had a few last night, but am off today. In the last couple of weeks my production at work has been ****ing incredible. Working in a commission sales job I can say I've learned how important it is to be alert, alive, and ready for the mission at hand every day when I go in.

Not only have I saved money on the booze, I've made a ridiculous amount of money in the last couple of weeks. I'm not trying to brag, just saying that the difference between the way I conducted my business up to the last couple of weeks cost me thousands upon thousands of dollars. I've literally made in the last 2 weeks what I made in the last 2 months. I've never been happier with a decision in my life. Hope it continues...

[Consistent1]

Originally Posted by Mr. Flopnuts

So, how's it going Bogey? Let's make this a support thread. I had a few last night, but am off today. In the last couple of weeks my production at work has been ****ing incredible. Working in a commission sales job I can say I've learned how important it is to be alert, alive, and ready for the mission at hand every day when I go in.

Not only have I saved money on the booze, I've made a ridiculous amount of money in the last couple of weeks. I'm not trying to brag, just saying that the difference between the way I conducted my business up to the last couple of weeks cost me thousands upon thousands of dollars. I've literally made in the last 2 weeks what I made in the last 2 months. I've never been happier with a decision in my life. Hope it continues...

I liked Pacino in the movie version of Glengary.

[bogey]

Originally Posted by Mr. Flopnuts

So, how's it going Bogey? Let's make this a support thread. I had a few last night, but am off today. In the last couple of weeks my production at work has been ****ing incredible. Working in a commission sales job I can say I've learned how important it is to be alert, alive, and ready for the mission at hand every day when I go in.

Not only have I saved money on the booze, I've made a ridiculous amount of money in the last couple of weeks. I'm not trying to brag, just saying that the difference between the way I conducted my business up to the last couple of weeks cost me thousands upon thousands of dollars. I've literally made in the last 2 weeks what I made in the last 2 months. I've never been happier with a decision in my life. Hope it continues...

I've always considered myself a functional alcoholic. I discovered this week-end that there are different levels of functional. Normally, by 10AM on Saturday, I was buzzed enough to find a nice easy chair for the rest of the week-end. I told myself (and my family) I had the right to do that because I work my ass off during the week. In reality, I did it because my energy level was so low (mentally and physically) that I couldn't get myself motivated to do anything. This week-end, I cleaned out my workshop (this was no easy task) but WOW was it satisfying!! I laid out plans to put up floating shelves in our kitchen (that will happen next week-end). I used to be very handy around the house, somewhere I lost interest in being handy. My handiness is coming back. Oh, and in the last 6 days, my wife and I have had sex twice Let the good time roll!

[beach tribe]

Originally Posted by bogey

I stopped smoking on April 8th 2013, I stopped drinking on July 8th 2013. I have been having secret internal battles with myself for many, many years. I came clean to my wife last night about my drinking problem. My secret internal battles are no longer a secret. I wish I could fast forward 6 months to prove to my wife and myself that I'm sincere. This is a GOOD ****ING DAY. I wanted to post this on here because this is my version of shouting out to the world, and none of you good people know me. Ya'll have a good day, ya hear? Way to go ME!

The WORST thing you can do is think you've won.
You haven't won shit Yet so don't go back patting yourself.
Your opponent is stronger and smarter than you think.
Be strong. Dont forget about the damage it does and will do.
For her, for yourself
Goodluck.