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[WebGem]

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Originally Posted by KurtCobain

Not sure if you got the post, i don't steal the bikes, and it feels good.

Sad part is, it's because I'm terrified of being stopped on a stolen bike more than anything else.

My fault. You were talking about having a long walk and then I assumed you borrowed a bike temporarily. Sorry dude. Glad you're reformed. You're one of our huge success stories on the Planet. At least I think so.

Originally Posted by KurtCobain

Nah it's all good, I'm doing pretty good right now if I can nail the social thing down. I more than appreciate it phil, you know that. I use to rather steal than ask for help. Now, I've accepted quite a bit of help, and at this point I'm now happier than shit to break my back to do everything for myself. Maybe help others one day.

I would rather somebody I knew got them for free than some random person had to pay $5-10 for each item. I'd even drop the bags off and you can donate what you can't use. Heck, we do this with our neighbors all the time. I used to be all goofy about my clothes but once I ruined a few items I spent full retail on, I swallowed my pride and started shopping the thrift store.

[-King-]

So basically...The Chiefs = Eminem and WebGem = Stan?

But seriously....you need to get a hold of your life. If a UFC fight makes you have suicidal thoughts...then you need to get some help and straighten out your priorities.

[kstater]

Quit being a pussy. Do it. If you're gonna talk about it, go ahead and do it.

[Fat Elvis]

Originally Posted by WebGem

First of all, I'm sorry for making this thread. I know it's not something to joke about, but I wasn't making it as a joke when I made it. Regardless of what I was thinking at the time, my intention was not to joke. I don't know what the **** I'm going to do right now, but I feel as defeated as someone can possibly feel. Something happened tonight that angered me into the most ridiculous thoughts ever and making this thread. I'm going to have to change my lifestyle after this. I usually sit on my computer all day, go on AIM, talk on forums, talk in Grindtime Tinychat, go out to eat with my friends here and occasionally go play live cash when I'm bored of playing online. Basically the only things I can do of those now is play poker, which is work for me, and cut all interaction with people I know. I'm ****ing sick to my stomach after what I saw tonight. I know it's not normal, but I'm not ****ing normal and that's why I feel this way. I don't need help so don't offer it, I can figure it out myself. The one thing I've realized is that this REALLY ****ing worries me about what the **** I will do if the Chiefs ever lose a Super Bowl because that's about the worst feeling I could possibly think of and the only thing worse than what I went through tonight. My whole entire life is wrestling, MMA and sports. I have the best family and friends anyone could ever ask for and I'm never ever ever ****ing happy. All I ever ****ing do is care about and worry about sports. It's the reason I haven't missed a second of any Chiefs game since 1996 when I was ****ing 12 years old. It's probably the reason I'm not married right now too. All I ever do is worry about these worthless ****ing sports teams that don't ever win anything ever. They all ****ing suck a dick. I'm probably going to look into moving somewhere really far away, overseas and try to change the way I view life. Because I can't take nights like tonight. I don't want to watch another fight or another sports game the rest of my ****ing life.

For those of you claiming I 'gamble' a lot, you're wrong. I didn't even have money on Shogun tonight for those of you assuming that. I did intend to put $300 on him, but the casino I went to to watch it had some part ownership in Zuffa or something like that and didn't take UFC bets. I play poker for a living, and I don't consider it gambling at all. I'm actually 100% against gambling and very responsible with any gambling I do from time to time and anyone you track down who knows me personally will confirm that. I have travelled to Vegas 15-20 times before and I have probably played a maximum of 10 hands of blackjack, and I don't even know how to play craps. I live here now and limit myself to 5 sports bets per month because it's hard for me to completely avoid sports betting w/ as big of a sports fan I am, and a maximum of $500 on each which I can easily afford. And even when it comes to poker, I ban myself from tournaments 90% of the time because I ****ing hate them.

For those of you who know me personally or care to talk to me for whatever reason, you can e-mail me at the e-mail DaFace posted whenever and I will write back soon as I am almost always at my computer. I am going to spend the next few days figuring out a place to move where I can work on fixing this bullshit I put myself through with revolving my life around this stupid ****ing shit and getting so ****ing mad at it all the time.

I will not be posting on ChiefsPlanet anymore and I will not be attending any Chiefs game for a long time, if I ever do again, so I probably won't see any of you guys for a while. The Chiefs part of the OP is the most true thing I could ever say. I know a lot of people here hate me because I troll 60% of the time, so you guys are probably happy to have me gone. The one's who actually like having me around, like I said, feel free to e-mail me or something. I won't be on AIM anymore and I won't be on this forum.

I feel like I'm saying goodbye to friends even though I don't know most of you personally, but the Chiefs are the one thing that up to this point in my life, I loved as much and probably more than anything. I really plan on changing that because I think whatever causes that is ****ing up my life. Someone fortunate enough to be surrounded by such great people their entire life, have a job they enjoy and love, and more freedom than most people would think possible, shouldn't be this unhappy so often over dumb shit. Bye.

First off, I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. Secondly, you DO need some help, maybe not the kind that any of us can offer, but you don't go suicidal period without needing help whether you follow through with it or not. At the very least, you need to go to a talk doc and explain what you've been going through, otherwise this is going to happen again.

I really hope you find some meaning in your life.

[Spott]

What is SDF?

[luv]

Originally Posted by WebGem

First of all, I'm sorry for making this thread. I know it's not something to joke about, but I wasn't making it as a joke when I made it. Regardless of what I was thinking at the time, my intention was not to joke. I don't know what the **** I'm going to do right now, but I feel as defeated as someone can possibly feel. Something happened tonight that angered me into the most ridiculous thoughts ever and making this thread. I'm going to have to change my lifestyle after this. I usually sit on my computer all day, go on AIM, talk on forums, talk in Grindtime Tinychat, go out to eat with my friends here and occasionally go play live cash when I'm bored of playing online. Basically the only things I can do of those now is play poker, which is work for me, and cut all interaction with people I know. I'm ****ing sick to my stomach after what I saw tonight. I know it's not normal, but I'm not ****ing normal and that's why I feel this way. I don't need help so don't offer it, I can figure it out myself. The one thing I've realized is that this REALLY ****ing worries me about what the **** I will do if the Chiefs ever lose a Super Bowl because that's about the worst feeling I could possibly think of and the only thing worse than what I went through tonight. My whole entire life is wrestling, MMA and sports. I have the best family and friends anyone could ever ask for and I'm never ever ever ****ing happy. All I ever ****ing do is care about and worry about sports. It's the reason I haven't missed a second of any Chiefs game since 1996 when I was ****ing 12 years old. It's probably the reason I'm not married right now too. All I ever do is worry about these worthless ****ing sports teams that don't ever win anything ever. They all ****ing suck a dick. I'm probably going to look into moving somewhere really far away, overseas and try to change the way I view life. Because I can't take nights like tonight. I don't want to watch another fight or another sports game the rest of my ****ing life.

For those of you claiming I 'gamble' a lot, you're wrong. I didn't even have money on Shogun tonight for those of you assuming that. I did intend to put $300 on him, but the casino I went to to watch it had some part ownership in Zuffa or something like that and didn't take UFC bets. I play poker for a living, and I don't consider it gambling at all. I'm actually 100% against gambling and very responsible with any gambling I do from time to time and anyone you track down who knows me personally will confirm that. I have travelled to Vegas 15-20 times before and I have probably played a maximum of 10 hands of blackjack, and I don't even know how to play craps. I live here now and limit myself to 5 sports bets per month because it's hard for me to completely avoid sports betting w/ as big of a sports fan I am, and a maximum of $500 on each which I can easily afford. And even when it comes to poker, I ban myself from tournaments 90% of the time because I ****ing hate them.

For those of you who know me personally or care to talk to me for whatever reason, you can e-mail me at the e-mail DaFace posted whenever and I will write back soon as I am almost always at my computer. I am going to spend the next few days figuring out a place to move where I can work on fixing this bullshit I put myself through with revolving my life around this stupid ****ing shit and getting so ****ing mad at it all the time.

I will not be posting on ChiefsPlanet anymore and I will not be attending any Chiefs game for a long time, if I ever do again, so I probably won't see any of you guys for a while. The Chiefs part of the OP is the most true thing I could ever say. I know a lot of people here hate me because I troll 60% of the time, so you guys are probably happy to have me gone. The one's who actually like having me around, like I said, feel free to e-mail me or something. I won't be on AIM anymore and I won't be on this forum.

I feel like I'm saying goodbye to friends even though I don't know most of you personally, but the Chiefs are the one thing that up to this point in my life, I loved as much and probably more than anything. I really plan on changing that because I think whatever causes that is ****ing up my life. Someone fortunate enough to be surrounded by such great people their entire life, have a job they enjoy and love, and more freedom than most people would think possible, shouldn't be this unhappy so often over dumb shit. Bye.

You're right. They shouldn't. Dumb shit will continue to happen, regardless of where you're at or what you do though. It's not the dumb shit happening, it's how you react to it. You say you don't need to talk to anyone. I'm just saying that, if these types of thoughts enter your head, whether over dumb shit or not, then you definitely should talk to someone.

Best wishes.

[Bugeater]

I'm curious as to how he managed to edit the thread title two hours after he started it.

[JOhn]

Originally Posted by Bugeater

I'm curious as to how he managed to edit the thread title two hours after he started it.

DaFace was here, bet he did it

[BigMeatballDave]

Good job not killing yourself. Now I dont have to feel bad about the joke I made and laughing at others.

Fix yourself, dude.

[LiveSteam]

Originally Posted by Bugeater

I'm curious as to how he managed to edit the thread title two hours after he started it.

His Ghost.

[Hog's Gone Fishin]

I always figured if I got to the point of killing myself I'd just go kill all the people that made my life so miserable.

[cabletech94]

Originally Posted by Spott

What is SDF?

that's what i was gonna ask!
can anyone help me/us?

[Hog's Gone Fishin]

Originally Posted by cabletech94

that's what i was gonna ask!
can anyone help me/us?

Stupid Dick ****

[DaFace]

Originally Posted by JOhn

DaFace was here, bet he did it

Affirmative.