Life I won my secret internal battle. - Page 9

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 11:07 AM

I stopped smoking on April 8th 2013, I stopped drinking on July 8th 2013. I have been having secret internal battles with myself for many, many years. I came clean to my wife last night about my drinking problem. My secret internal battles are no longer a secret. I wish I could fast forward 6 months to prove to my wife and myself that I'm sincere. This is a GOOD ****ING DAY. I wanted to post this on here because this is my version of shouting out to the world, and none of you good people know me. Ya'll have a good day, ya hear? Way to go ME!

Rasputin · 07-11-2013, 12:44 AM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

You're right. I'm not. But playing ball 3-4x a week combined with pounding swill as fast as I can choke it down certainly leads down that road. I have to be smarter.

Be sure to be drinking plenty of water. Drinking alcohol is a dehydrant (sp) so you need to be extra careful playing ball in the heat. I don't care how bad ass a person is alcohol + hot day & extra exertion is not a good mix. Be sure to hydrate the body & take care of yourself. That goes for everybody & those that think they are immune to heat stroke are fooling themselves.

Simply Red · 07-11-2013, 01:00 AM

I've seen heat strokes live - It's nothing nice - it was while playing tennis an ALTA season.

frankotank · 07-11-2013, 08:54 AM

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Originally Posted by houstonwhodat

How are you cleansing?

my wifes good friends daughter...sheesh that sounds weird....is selling advocare products. she wanted to try it and talked me into it. I figure...what's the worst that could happen!

frankotank · 07-11-2013, 08:59 AM

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Originally Posted by BigRedChief

My Dad was an alcholic. Drank a case of beer a day for 25+ years. I drank like a fish for 10 years. I stopped getting drunk all the time. Drink when I want to drink. Don't get drunk now. I don't understand this one drink and your a drunk again all the time.

not sure the bolded means what I think it means...but....
my mother in law...God rest her soul....was an alcoholic. she could drink like two beers and just be wasted. I've been told that an alcoholic always has alcohol in their blood stream from previous drinking episodes. so when they grab a few cold ones, this combined with what is already in their system gets them wasted much easier than say a non-alcoholic person.

seems legit. not sure if true.

Ace Gunner · 07-11-2013, 09:00 AM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

You know what is really strange and somewhat frightening? I pound water before I go to bed and I never get a hangover unless I've gone absolutely crazy drinking hard liquor. That has happened maybe once in the past decade. I play ball with a couple of guys who drink until 3:00 AM Friday, get up at 6:30 AM and start drinking again. I'm not that guy but I go beer for beer with them all day Saturday. If I don't nip it, I'll probably have to find a different team and I really don't want to do that.

seems to me you will not be so thrilled playing with this team of swillers while you are sober. been there, did this, wound up running with a different crowd.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 12:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

Played ball tonight. Didn't have a drop. Didn't give it a second thought. Play with a couple of guys who have been struggling with alcoholism in their lives on tomorrow's team so I think I'm going to be sober in support of them as well.

I play on a company slow pitch. First sober game is tonight. Very curious about my sober game.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 12:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

there are no 'tests' bogey - this is now not the old you - you no longer acknowledge alcohol, got it? hrs become days and continue to graduate - suddenly you've been off of it for a year then two then three then you never think about it - you see - here's the secret - it's no longer you - you own it - you own it.

Order Pellegrino or a rich dark coffee or even a diet cherry pepsi - I can do lemon water - often I order Pellegrino, or another unusual non alcoholic bev. Order crisp salads - eat good wholesome in your face healthy food - such as sautéed chicken w/ crushed red pepper -- roast baby broccoli - savor the air in the morning - get your exercise - get up feeling GOOD - do all of this for yourself FIRST and then your family - this is one thing you do for YOU 'first'

No bullshit / you quit

Ok

Boog out

Man I'd like to party with you.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 12:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Phobia

It's good to be mature enough to recognize when it's becoming problematic. Time to take control of that aspect of my life before it gets out of control. I keep beer in my fridge and sometimes it will sit for weeks or months before I touch it but I'll drink a ton of busch light over 4 or 5 hours at softball games and even more at an all-day saturday tournament. It's not even incredibly enjoyable for me because I'm a beer snob. I can easily replace it with water or sports drinks. Not trying to take anything from bogey, just representing in case somebody else needs to feel like they're not alone with their struggles.

Speaking for myself, it is truly helpful to know that I'm not alone with my struggle. I appreciate it Phobia.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 12:58 PM

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Originally Posted by KC Tattoo

I never thought I could go fishing with out drinking. Going fishing use to be code word for going to the lake or river to get ****ed up drunk.

When I did catch a fish sober for the first time was one of the coolest things ever. I felt great and alive for the first time in a long time. It was great the fish put up a good fight but I rung him in for a good size fish. Tasted great after cooking him on the grill.

Can have fun being sober & can remember things for good memories that last with out the regret of being stupid from being drunk.

Ah, memory loss. That's another thing I won't miss. Used to have conversations with people and the next day have the same conversation. They would say, "we talked about this yesterday" very embarrassing.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 01:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

What's bad about it is - it will sneak up on you - and it's really easy to be all like 'oh I got this shit' - then you find yourself having more and more days and nights of regret - I think at that point you know you have an issue, or you should know.

Guys I'm not saying this to be neat or rad or anything - really I don't care. I had some nights I should have died - about four to be precise - there were times I cried to quit and even looked up and cried out for help, aloud and drunken, while doing so. maniacal

It's not a joke - it'll **** your world if you let it - and I'm always here - I don't care which poster - I'll do my best to help you psychologically against this beast.

ok I'm done now - my sermon is over and I'm off to bed. I'm speaking from my heart tho.

This thread has been more helpful to me than any of you can possibly imagine... seriously, Thank you!

vailpass · 07-11-2013, 01:19 PM

Good luck dude. Know what you mean. I'm in the middle of a bad one. Afraid I might die today. Don't know how to beat this. Have all the money in the world and it doesn't mean a thing.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 01:27 PM

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Originally Posted by vailpass

Good luck dude. Know what you mean. I'm in the middle of a bad one. Afraid I might die today. Don't know how to beat this. Have all the money in the world and it doesn't mean a thing.

What do you need vailpass?

vailpass · 07-11-2013, 01:29 PM

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Originally Posted by bogey

What do you need vailpass?

It's too much to go into, should never have said that. Good luck to you.

**bogey** · 07-11-2013, 01:30 PM

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Originally Posted by bogey

What do you need vailpass?

I sent you a message.

07-11-2013, 04:35 PM

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Originally Posted by vailpass

It's too much to go into, should never have said that. Good luck to you.

Hang in there, bud. Whatever it is. You're a good dude.

07-10-2013, 11:07 AM
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vailpass Psycho Bag Of Squanch Join Date: Sep 2001 Casino cash: $9594244	Good luck dude. Know what you mean. I'm in the middle of a bad one. Afraid I might die today. Don't know how to beat this. Have all the money in the world and it doesn't mean a thing. __________________ “Education is a weapon whose effect depends on who holds it in his hands and at whom it is aimed.” Joseph Stalin
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