Life I won my secret internal battle. - Page 7

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 11:07 AM

I stopped smoking on April 8th 2013, I stopped drinking on July 8th 2013. I have been having secret internal battles with myself for many, many years. I came clean to my wife last night about my drinking problem. My secret internal battles are no longer a secret. I wish I could fast forward 6 months to prove to my wife and myself that I'm sincere. This is a GOOD ****ING DAY. I wanted to post this on here because this is my version of shouting out to the world, and none of you good people know me. Ya'll have a good day, ya hear? Way to go ME!

Simply Red · 07-10-2013, 07:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Deberg_1990

Congrats dude!

well thanks - it's like a non topic now - more of a 'way of life' I never even think about it. seriously - but thanks again.

**BigRedChief** · 07-10-2013, 08:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

BRC I don't think you were indicating otherwise, I just wanted to point out that we can't compare our experiences to yours. We just see it all differently - alcohol that is.

Yeah, I've had friends that just had a beer and thats it, they are drinking again. For whatever reason, some people just taste alcohol and they cant think of anything but the next drink. Must be hard as hell to avoid temptation. Cudos to you, and everyone else successfully battling this daily.

Fish · 07-10-2013, 08:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Mr. Flopnuts

If not for my weight, you and I would be peas in a pod. I go to work every day, perform through the infrequent hangover, and have no problems outside of the fact I have to wear every ****ing ounce of it I consume.

Yeah I manage alcoholism about as well as one can. Perfect example of a functional alcoholic. Not proud of it, as I know I've gotten by on luck more times than a fella deserves. Only thing keeping it going is how overly cautious I am about it. I can still completely refrain when I have to. When I'm driving or when I'm with my daughter. But when I have no responsibility, I drink like I have no responsibility....

Sadly, about 1/2 of my caloric intake is beer and I lessen my intake of food because I drink so many calories. It's pathetic, But I manage it well. I know I should and could change my ways....

Marcellus · 07-10-2013, 08:18 PM

Good job Bogey!

KCwolf · 07-10-2013, 08:53 PM

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Originally Posted by bogey

If I can get through a season of Chiefs without drinking, I'm home free!

If You can do that .... your cured. Period.

Rasputin · 07-10-2013, 09:02 PM

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Originally Posted by KCwolf

If You can do that .... your cured. Period.

Until next season of DOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!

Nope your never cured. PERIOD.

Even if we ever win a playoff game again that leads to a Championship & win that. Then all bets are off about drinking. So there is no "cure". Just another day is what we got.

Simply Red · 07-10-2013, 09:22 PM

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Originally Posted by BigRedChief

Yeah, I've had friends that just had a beer and thats it, they are drinking again. For whatever reason, some people just taste alcohol and they cant think of anything but the next drink. Must be hard as hell to avoid temptation. Cudos to you, and everyone else successfully battling this daily.

ty BRC - I appreciate it, it's really nothing now - i'm immune to temptation - for it is my little bitch.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Brianfo

Congrats dude. I have the same personality and the same habits as you. Minus the smoking. Just like to drink way too much. I am a functioning alcoholic, but there will come a day when I will just quit. That's how I roll.

Yea, I was a functioning alcoholic as well. I got tired of living a secret life. Huge monkey off of my back.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Bwana

Good for you dude, stay strong.

Thanks Bwana.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:28 PM

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Originally Posted by WilliamInnerCircle

Good luck to you bogey.

I'm 24 years clean and sober. I still owe my life to the guy who took me to my first meeting.

For me "sick and tired of being sick and tired" led me to turn it around.

And before anybody asks: DUI's: 0

That's exactly right... sick and tired of being sick and tired. I tried a meeting several months ago. Little to religion oriented for me. But really glad it's worked for you. You must be an old fart like me if you quit 24 years ago.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

Bogey - first of all it's great to see you post - second; if I can ever offer you individual accountability - feel free to PM at any time. I'll respond ASAP - I know how the road is - and honestly - it's not hard (at least for me)

You're speaking as if it's in your past - that's a good start. So you were closet drinking - I used to do that as well.

Others on CP'ers need to look into this - at last count roughly 27% of CP'ers have at least 'somewhat' of a drinking problem.

There's nothing like being sober all of the time and aware. It's irreplaceable. Your liver will thank you!

Next try to improve your diet.

Congrats Bogey, I've been off of alcohol for approaching four years now.

Thanks SR, words to live by. Gotta tell you, there's some great support on this site. And yes sir, if I have a weak moment, you can count on a PM. My wife is fabulous, more understanding than I deserve really. We got an invitation to one of my favorite restaurants for this Friday. They make the best Bombay martinis in town (big glass). It's going to be an interesting test... but I'm sure I'll be fine. Love CP! Lovin' life right now. My diets pretty good, my wife sees to that. Think my next step is exercise.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

not true at all - you can't excuse a relapse. period. I mean the meetings help thing is - but not the other part.

BTW I didn't even use AA. this time.

Yea, no AA for me, NTTAWWT

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Simply Red

don't you ****ing relapse bogey. There's no looking back.

Right on Brother!

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:52 PM

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Originally Posted by Fish

Yeah I manage alcoholism about as well as one can. Perfect example of a functional alcoholic. Not proud of it, as I know I've gotten by on luck more times than a fella deserves. Only thing keeping it going is how overly cautious I am about it. I can still completely refrain when I have to. When I'm driving or when I'm with my daughter. But when I have no responsibility, I drink like I have no responsibility....

Sadly, about 1/2 of my caloric intake is beer and I lessen my intake of food because I drink so many calories. It's pathetic, But I manage it well. I know I should and could change my ways....

How old are you Fish? I'm 55, I could really tell it was having negative affects on my health. I don't have tons of years left, and because I was hiding it, that added a new level of horrible stress. Used to, I would get home 30 minutes later because I'd stop at the side of the road and have a few snorts. That last two days, I came straight home from work with no worries of smell, no guilt from sitting on the side of the road like a drunk or getting home later than necessary. A couple of little things that made me smile.

**bogey** · 07-10-2013, 09:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Marcellus

Good job Bogey!

Thanks Marcellus

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