Addiction...

[Bugeater]

Originally Posted by MadMax

I was a heavy intravenous cocaine user from 83-85 I quit cold turkey because I felt I had become something sub-human. I joined the Army and did 6 years there to continue my recovery. I know it's not that simple, but it saved my life. Oh I also have a little left over friend from that era called Hepatitis C and it reminds me every freakin day what an asshole I am. I still battle an alcohol and tobacco addiction. The sad thing is the alcohol is killing me but for some reason I just won't let it go. I truly believe it is all just a matter of how much do you care. It is in you and not what others do or say. I sadly have chosen to not give a shit anymore It has to come from within you and not others. I could go on about the health and social problems my addictions have caused but i've already said too much I will never post here again I feel reeruned.

Damn dude, that's terrible. I can somewhat relate though, I have gone through long periods where I didn't give a shit about anything. It's nothing to be embarrassed about, addictions are a bitch.