So this jaust happened...

[rabblerouser]

Crazy Town had a full meltdown, went from trying to seduce me and then accusing me of stealing her drugs and then...wrecked into my neighbor's parked car, totalling it.

She then pulled into my driveway, leaking fluids and dragging her wiper fluid reservoir on the asphalt. Jumped out and screaming all kinds of shit at me. I told her I was calling the cops so she took off in her ****ed up brand-new Lexus.

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by ThaVirus

A mature person wouldn't have found themselves in this situation to begin with.

You're 40 years old still ****ing with hardcore drugs and bragging about sticking your dick in crazy whores you named Fun Bags and Throat GOAT, laughing about how one of them totaled your neighbors cars in the trailer park.

You've got a daughter, dude. You need to do better.

Maybe you missed this post?

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

I had a lot of toxicity of my own I had to deal with, and once I started processing all the childhood shit, it wasn't the hugest step to get out of the whole "look at what those ****ed up females did to me!?" victimstance. Like, what did I EXPECT out of them? I deluded myself into thinking she was a whore with a heart of gold but in reality she had your regular old basic cold ass whore's heart.

It was MY fault. I put myself in that position.

Gold Star wanted to marry me, but I wouldn't commit, my unprocessed trauma ruined that. I didn't deal with it, wouldn't process it.

My grandma who raised me died. I wouldn't process it.

Fun Bags never wanted to, like, marry me...but she genuinely liked me and wanted me to grow and there were issues....and I wouldn't even talk to her about them.

So when it ended, and I was hurt, it was foreign because I was used to feeling NOTHING. This was painful, and I had been conditioned since childhood to ignore pain.

So I ignored it and ran into the Superfreak buzzsaw aka Crazy Town.

I had no business being in a relationship with ANYONE, but especially not her. But I was just running from pain.

Now I know not to run from pain. Just sit in it. Allow it to happen. It hurt because I cared. And it's okay to care. It's GOOD to care about someone that much. Not a weakness.

So, Funbags will probably hurt me again. She hurts me now, because we are keeping our distance, and it totally hurts. But I know it's necessary, because I'm still healing. And she's probably going to hurt me in the future. Or someone else will, eventually. I accept that. I'm so sensitive, everything hurts me anyway. Might as well be her. Pain is inevitable; it's suffering that is the choice. I no longer choose to suffer.

But I am 100% accountable for the action I made that put me in that position, and I have completely changed my life over the past year :

Got divorced
Moved back to Columbia
Quit drinking
Quit eating processed foods/gluten
Hot yoga almost every day
In an intensive therapy program

And I go to school/work and have an internship and a band.

My relationships with everyone are better than ever.

People can honestly see how much better I am and how much happier I am.

My boss had me watch her 10 month old daughter last week.

When my best friend got married in OP, this GIANT ass house with all the kids from the wedding party... I stayed with the kids and watched the house when they went to the hotel after the reception. My friend let me use his brand new Dodge Ram pickup to go move a bed frame. Just left the keys in the cup holder.
These things probably don't happen a year ago.

I've grown so much from everythimg that it's downright visible, people can SEE it. And they're responding.

[ThaVirus]

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

Maybe you missed this post?

Yeah, you sound like one of these Gen Z pussies. "I was a victim" "I had unprocessed trauma" blah blah.

And you also sound like one of those dipshits bragging about never being arrested. "My friend left me his car keys" "my friends trusted me enough to watch a few kids after a wedding reception" lol THOSE ARE THINGS THAT SHOULD BE EXPECTED OF YOU.

But in all seriousness, I'm glad you feel like you're turning things around. It just sucks that you let it get so bad in the first place.. and, idk, you being so argumentative in this thread leads me to believe that you've got some more growing up to do.

Just realize that nearly every bad thing that has ever happened to you is a result of your shitty decision-making. Once you accept that, things will improve.

[LoneWolf]

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

I always do.

Unlike you...who just keeps it real lame and real stupid.

Hey Rabble, maybe take a break from this thread. I can assure you that nothing good is going to come out of you continuing to bicker back and forth with other posters. Chalk this one up to “maybe I don’t share some of the wild things that happen in my life on a message board where it’s known that I’ve had a pretty ****ed up life for a few years.” People are going to be judge mental because that’s what humans do.

Keep working on you. The rest of this doesn’t really matter that much.

[Sassy Squatch]

Yeah, reading through the thread and I'm a bit baffled why you thought posting a story about your drunken ex smashing both your neighbors cars in a fit of drunken rage would correlate to back pats and 'attaboys' about how much better you're doing or, well, pretty much anything except the mocking you got.

But congrats on fighting through those rough times and making things better for yourself.

[Eleazar]

real housewives of independence

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by Superturtle

Yeah, reading through the thread and I'm a bit baffled why you thought posting a story about your drunken ex smashing both your neighbors cars in a fit of drunken rage would correlate to back pats and 'attaboys' about how much better you're doing or, well, pretty much anything except the mocking you got.

I'm still kinda stunned.

I moved on long ago and don't understand what she's trying to accomplish with her behavior.

Like, does anyone go "Goddamn, she really is coming apart without me. I should go lay down on the railroad tracks with her..."

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by Razaele

real housewives of independence

I live in Columbia.

She lives in Peculiar.

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by ThaVirus

Yeah, you sound like one of these Gen Z pussies. "I was a victim" "I had unprocessed trauma" blah blah.

And you also sound like one of those dipshits bragging about never being arrested. "My friend left me his car keys" "my friends trusted me enough to watch a few kids after a wedding reception" lol THOSE ARE THINGS THAT SHOULD BE EXPECTED OF YOU.

But in all seriousness, I'm glad you feel like you're turning things around. It just sucks that you let it get so bad in the first place.. and, idk, you being so argumentative in this thread leads me to believe that you've got some more growing up to do.

Just realize that nearly every bad thing that has ever happened to you is a result of your shitty decision-making. Once you accept that, things will improve.

Like, if you have brain damage that makes you forget things in your short term memory, then forgive me for asking if you have any concept of what words mean when they are strung together to form a sentence? Because I bolded the parts you must've missed when you got up on your high horse to extoll the virtues of accountability to me :

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

I had a lot of toxicity of my own I had to deal with, and once I started processing all the childhood shit, it wasn't the hugest step to get out of the whole "look at what those ****ed up females did to me!?" victimstance.

It was MY fault. I put myself in that position.



I had no business being in a relationship with ANYONE, but especially not her. But I was just running from pain.

Does it need to be quoted a third time? Do you need a breakdown of what each word means in this context?

Like, if you want me to even take you seriously, on any level, you have to do a better job of comprehending what I posted and not just skimming so you can be a smarmy asshole in your retort.

#fact #dobetteryour****ingself

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by LoneWolf

Hey Rabble, maybe take a break from this thread. I can assure you that nothing good is going to come out of you continuing to bicker back and forth with other posters. Chalk this one up to “maybe I don’t share some of the wild things that happen in my life on a message board where it’s known that I’ve had a pretty ****ed up life for a few years.” People are going to be judge mental because that’s what humans do.

Keep working on you. The rest of this doesn’t really matter that much.

It doesn't matter at all.

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by notorious

A lot of hot girls have things so easy they don’t know how to handle the slightest adversity.

When it happens they default back to their childhood years and do what worked for them. Throw fits, cry a lot, etc. When they got a little older they resort to sex. That always fixed the problem in the past.

When you reject them after that their chambers are empty. Get one on drugs? JFC

It's the alcohol for her.

The drugs add to it...but the alcohol is the constant. And it's not good for her.

Not good for a lot of people.

[RockChalk]

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

She lives in Peculiar.

I have decided I no longer want to see any pics

[ThaVirus]

Originally Posted by rabblerouser

Like, if you have brain damage that makes you forget things in your short term memory, then forgive me for asking if you have any concept of what words mean when they are strung together to form a sentence? Because I bolded the parts you must've missed when you got up on your high horse to extoll the virtues of accountability to me :



Does it need to be quoted a third time? Do you need a breakdown of what each word means in this context?

Like, if you want me to even take you seriously, on any level, you have to do a better job of comprehending what I posted and not just skimming so you can be a smarmy asshole in your retort.

#fact #dobetteryour****ingself

Yeah, I was just speaking generally. You're not the only **** up on this board. It helps for others to hear that sort of thing.

But you do sound like a pussy, though. You're super sensitive and clearly still don't fully grasp the concept.

It was a bad decision for you to post this info here and you are not holding yourself accountable for the blowback you're getting. You decided to post this, you brought this on yourself.

[scho63]

My best friend's twin brother at 68 years old is a 45-50 year long drug addict. So is the 53 yr old sister in law and 30 year old nephew.

The three of them along with a border live in a trailer together.

It is MASSIVE DRAMA 24x7x365.

Police, fights between all of them, jail, past due on all bills, no valid drivers license, no registration, no car insurance, no bank accounts, 1 person barely working out of 3, no working vehicle, 1 car impounded, DMV surcharges, unpaid tickets, utilities off and on for non payment, unwashed clothes, holes in shoes, no money for food many times per month, no doctors or dentists for 20 years, cell phones sold for drugs, no money to pay cell, never pay income taxes in 30 years, food stamps, other assistance.

They do heroin, crystal meth, alcohol.

This is the day after day of a ****ing low life drug addict.

The live and function in drama.

Most people can't fathom how they stay in squalor.

My best friend couldn't be more opposite.

[rabblerouser]

Originally Posted by ThaVirus

Yeah, I was just speaking generally. You're not the only **** up on this board. It helps for others to hear that sort of thing.

Well, quote them and not me.

When you quote me, I get this crazy notion that you're addressing me specifically...

Originally Posted by ThaVirus

But you do sound like a pussy, though. You're super sensitive and clearly still don't fully grasp the concept.

Yes, I am super sensitive. And there's nothing wrong with that. I disassociated for so long, I'm dealing with shit I didn't deal with for more than 3 decades.

As for the "pussy" comment :
1. I am what I eat.
2. A pussy can take quite the pounding'
3. I can say what I want to anyone. In person. No one has ever beat my ass except my dad. Just because I'm shedding the toxic masculinity that society indoctrinated us with doesn't mean I'm cured - I knocked one drunk asshole plumb senseless at the Blue Note the other day.
I often wonder how a guy like that feels after a long-haired dude with soft features, earrings, and sparkly fingers knocks him the **** out. his eyes rolled back into his head, and I thought I won a kewpie doll.

So, yeah. Call me a pussy on the internet, keyboard warrior. If me being sensitive and allowing myself space to feel so I can heal makes you think I'm a "pussy", then your comment makes you look like a small-minded, rednecked dickhead ****ing loser.

I'd rather be a sensitive pussy than butt****ing moran who is a judgmental redneck hillbilly bigot forever stuck in the ****ing 1950s.

You should stop beating your wife and let her get a job.

Difference between me and you :

I will say all of this to your face, and you won't do a ****ing thing about it, coward.

You don't have the balls to call me a "pussy" to my face, guaranteed. And if you do, your balls are definitely bigger than your brain...

Originally Posted by ThaVirus

It was a bad decision for you to post this info here and you are not holding yourself accountable for the blowback you're getting. You decided to post this, you brought this on yourself.

It was a bad decision to allow myself to be in a relationship with her.

Yet somehow, if I have any trouble sleeping tonight...it will not be because of this post.

[ClevelandBronco]

I’d say it’s a virtual certainty that rabble stole Crazy Town’s drugs and hid them in his brain.